having lessons with a runny nose is horrible, especially when you very badly need to clear your nose but are in a lecture theater with so many ppl around and any wrong move or sound will have you wanting to dig a hole in the ground and burying yourself.

seems like i didn't managed to skip the sore throat and the flu part after all, they just changed the order in which they come.

it's gonna be a long long week....

especially since it's like becoming clearer and clearer that i have been thinking too much YET again and it's pretty obvious that it's not what i thought it was...

i think i am starting to resign to fate, seeing that what i am feeling now is just a feeling of being lost and sorta a " to hell with the world" kinda stuff.

am i like becoming emotionless?

just what in the world is the right thing to do?

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

but it seems like it's never enough. or that it isn't even the correct thing to do in the first place.

i have no idea what's going on anymore.
should i just give up?
should i learn to let go?
i guess life is never a bed of roses.
but do i have to keep just being pricked by the thorns,
with the roses forever staying out of reach?
nothing i do seems to ever matter.
did i ever mattered in the first place?

everytime you and i connect with each other,
a little bit of heart is born between us.
heart isn't something inside you,
but whenever you think.
whenever you remember someone,
that's when heart is born.

can i be heartless instead?

i guess it doesn't matter anymore, does it?

i can only hope that i am thinking way, WAY too much.