Yaco

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

i am kinda starting to think that i have really paid $165 to torture myself with my contact lenses.

true, i kinda enjoy wearing contacts cos they are letting me view the world more clearly and without any obstruction then i have since like 10 years ago?

it's amazing how much that little more freedom of the eyes can let me appreciate viewing the world.

however, they are also making my eyes super tired and at times painful and irritated. and the weird moments where the contacts go blur in the middle of nothing and copying lecture notes is blurified

is it worth it to put my eyes through this sorta torture?

they say that i will get used to it and it won't hurt anymore in the future.

i really hope that that is the case cos i don't think i want my eyes to keep suffering.

and it's not exactly cheap, $165 for 6 months...

oh well, the most i will be able to wear them is only for this year though, cos in the army, everyone is gonna be wearing similar black thick specs.

which brings me to another point.

time really flies! in like 10 months, i will be taking my A levels and then in another few months, i will be stuck in the army for 2 years. then uni and then work!

10 months used to feel so long but after the freakishly fast 2006, it doesn't seem to any longer.

i really should learn to use my time wisely.

Last Barking On|10:35 PM|

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

everything's back to normal i guess.

j2 life is tough, but i will survive fine i guess. not the type who will place stress on myself... if only i can get the stupid weather project out of the way, all will be fine le.

now everyday is packed from morning till night with studies and training after the logsheet came into play. which is good i guess, preparing us for the june race. and after hearing from the kayakers that our main opponent, nj, isn't as good as last year, i feel that we have an actual shot at gold this year!

after spending so much time and effort, all the sweat and pain, i don't think anyone from the team wants anything lesser then a gold to end our journey right?

i am gonna do everything i can to improve and i hope that everyone else does too.

nobody from the team is gonna read this but go for the gold everyone!!!!

Last Barking On|11:37 PM|

Friday, January 26, 2007

well, all the stuff is finally over.

spent alot of time at the void deck of my grandma's house these few days and tried to study there but i guess the sound of mahjong and people chatting and playing cards isn't really conducive for studying.

which means i am pretty much dead for my chem and maths test.

doesn't really matter though, seeing that this is an A lvl year.

i know it's really wrong to say this but funerals are really alot of trouble.

first, there's all the procedures that have to be followed, including alot of rituals that doesn't make any sense and is extremely length.

maybe it's just cos i am an atheist.

second, there's the very high cost involved. a 5 days funeral cost more then 10k? that's alot of money that doesn't have to be spent.

for my funeral, i am gonna demand in my will that i am cremated within a day of my death and no rituals. instead, i want my family to just spend a day at the beach or a park or something in memory of me.

after all, after i am gone, isn't keeping the family together the most important thing rather then stupid stuff we do now just for the sake of "face"?

i see my extended family breaking up after this as my grandmother was the only thing that was keeping them together with all their quarrels.

that's another reason why i think funerals are a bad idea because my uncle and aunts were like in a heated "discussion" for 4 hours after everything's been settled about the cost related to the funeral?

it's like extremely stupid to start arguing just after your own mother has been cremated? although i don't believe in the afterlife, they do and what the hell do they think that their mother would be thinking after seeing them argue and behaving like kids?

and so me and my cousins were in the room watching this would-be-comedy-if-the-actors-weren't-our-parents play out. and feeling throughly irritated because we could all see how stupid their arguments were and how we were totally powerless to do anything about it due to the difference in seniority.

and them badmouthing each other infront of us doesn't really help either because they all believe themselves to be the only one right when it's really a case where no one is in the wrong and they just have different perspective.

i felt dumb after listening to them.

and to think that all of us were doing the exact same thing barely an hour ago when grandma was being cremated.

crying.

it's really heart-wrenching to hear their painful sobs when the coffin was being sent into the machine such that i teared myself even though i didn't tear at all throughout the whole 5 days.

now i really believe what my cousins told me. that life is like a cycle, you start off childish, grow mature and become childish again after you reach a certain age.

i certainly hope that i would know better then to behave like them when their combined age is like a few hundred years old and they are squabbling like kids over money and calculative to the last cent?

money really is the root of all evil.

time for life to go back to normal!

only i really, really hope that i don't do anything stupid again.

Last Barking On|10:55 PM|

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

well, it finally happened. my grandma passed away on sunday night. i guess this is gonna be a busy week then...

Last Barking On|12:08 AM|

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

sigh... been to the hospital quite alot lately to visit my grandmother who is suffering from some rare disease that is causing her red blood cells to burst and turning her whole body yellow...

just received the news yesterday that she only got a few days left to live, which i find it hard to believe since when i saw her on sunday, she looked pretty ok and was still able to talk but when i saw her today, her eyes were already unfocused and i didn't hear her talk at all in the few hours i am there...

so if i disappear in the next few days, you should know where am i and dun need to ask too much...

was weird studying for the geo test tmr in the hospital too... not really in the mood to study???

anyway, i am feeling pretty ok since my grandma is not really suffering and she has lived to a ripe old age of close to 90 le and she has her whole family around her everyday. i guess she had lead a satisfactory life and there's nothing much to regret le....

the stupid weather is making alot of ppl sick, including me. just hoping that it doesn't degrade to the four friends again cos i started with the sore throat this time and not the flu as per usual.

been hanging out with my og quite abit recently and they are good company to chat with. though it seems that every batch is getting more and more hardworking... our seniors said we were so hardworking during the first 3 months that we were scary but when i see the j1 batch this year, they seem alot more hardworking then us.

which is good i guess, maybe they can push ny up the ladder off 9th place?

being sick sucks.

Last Barking On|11:40 PM|

Saturday, January 13, 2007

It's been such a long time!

well, i am long over it le, with some help from the guys when we went to sentosa.

anyway, sch has started for two weeks now and i had a busy and fun two weeks!

orientation was the first thing of the new year and i guess it was pretty good?

since it was my second time being and ogl, i wasn't as nervous anymore and infact, i think i was pretty slack since i only started to lose my voice on the last day when i lost my voice on the first day the first time round.

maybe it's because this time i didn't have to lead much and shout much cos my og got ppl who are willing to lead and thus i had a much easier time then most of the other ogl.

however, it was kinda hard to be high when the other two ogl wasn't really the type to get really hyper so i think my og was a little bit sian diao, at least compared to some of the other ogs.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention, i was the ogl for og 13 in abyss! though if you ask me, abyss was one of the most dead house...

still, i had quite a lot of fun! my og this time round was much better then the one in o2, at least they were much more enthu.

nice batch of ppl!

kinda sad that the orientation was so short though... i think one more day of orientation would have made alot of difference and bonded more of them together instead of the 8-10 ppl that's together now.

beyond that, it was a great 3 days!

then it was dragonboat orientation and i guess it didn't go as smoothly as it should as one of the boat sank -_-''... it's like the first time ever that i have ever seen a dragonboat sink sia...

then it was one week of chionging the holiday hw that i am still chionging now. but it's for the most part done le so it's not so bad...

the general agreement among the j2 guys is that the j1 girls on the average is better looking then the j2 girls.

ok, that was random.

but it's hard to blog about so much stuff at one go when there's so much to blog about and you have a leaky memory like mine!!!

oh well, i am gonna try to go back to my blogging habit but it seems kinda hard when there's so much going on.

just one more short year to go!

Last Barking On|9:43 PM|