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Monday, February 12, 2007

Memories

I have no idea why, but my uncle suddenly dug out an old holiday video that included me from 1998 and made it into cds for us and it brought back alot of memories.

i looked damn cute! and blur. and toot too to say the truth.

then i decided to look through the old photos albums for fun and i saw a number of photos of me doing stupid stuff, half of which i don't even remember doing.

i have decided to scan them into the com and burn them into disc to prevent the photos from degenerating further and believe me, some of the photos are degenerating.

and i have the time too, seeing that i won't be out much during the chinese new year, due to the belief that you aren't supposed to celebrate chinese new year if someone in your family passed away recently.

so that's my entire mother's half of the family gone and they are the ones i usually celebrate chinese new year with.

dang.

anyone wanna like invite me over please do so cos i will die if i spend the entire chinese new year at home -_-''...

anyway, the photos also brought me to some not so nice realisation too.

that i haven't taken any photos with my family since primary school and at the lower primary to come to take.

that i don't have any photo of myself growing up since 2000?(i think)

that i only have one family portrait, which is to the zoo, which is like more then 10 years ago

that i have never traveled aboard with my entire family before due to my dad not being able to go off work

that i have a pretty dysfunctional family where my dad haven't even slept in the same room as my mom for years, where my dad don't get along with my mom and sis, i don't get along with my mom and sis, i am neutral towards my dad and the only two who is close is my mom and sis with me and my dad treating the house more as a hotel then a home

can't remember anytime where i actually talked to any member of my family for more then a few sentence except when we are arguing.

pretty sad family eh?

the saddest thing is that i am not really bothered by this and don't really care too much about it

however, if there's one thing for certain though, that is that i will not ever let my own family degrade to this and will make every single effort to ensure that my children always love their home and their parents and my other half shall lead as happy a life as i can possibly managed.

perhaps it really requires for you to have a lousy family to want to create a good family and really treasure it...

perhaps that's why i don't believe in god and am such a firm atheist, because i believe that it's only up to you to make your own life work

i will make my life a good and memorable one.

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