Yaco

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

school's getting awfully monotonous. it's like everyday, i am simply waiting for the lessons to end so i can get out of the classroom.

i mean i don't really mind studying, as long as there's no teacher going on and on in the class and making me doze off.

and trust me, i am like dozing off for everything and anything -_-''...

it's like i am living for the period before and after school. soon, i think it's gonna becoming living for the after school only.

bleah.

life's getting too cramped up with school work and becoming too boring and monotonous!!!

i need to get out of this slump before i sian myself to death!

Last Barking On|11:22 PM|

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

sob... i just lost $150...

damn... was planning to buy a pair of sneakers with that...

Last Barking On|11:31 PM|

Sunday, February 18, 2007

i just read some of my previous posts and it seems like my life is horrible now?

actually i think my life now isn't all that bad, apart from studies taking up much more of my life then i want it to.

i think i am having a much easier time in j2 then alot of my peers and a much better life then my sis who is like doing hw till 2+ everyday and she's just in sec 3.

bunch of crazy ppl.

anyway, i think the reason for the outlook of my blog is because unhappy stuff are much easier to blog about compared to happy stuff, due to people's natural tendency to complain.

let's take the events of the past few days as an example

friday was the celebration of the cny, which was like the worst cny celebration that i have been through, lessons in the morning and then a super lousy concert.

i wasn't the only one who was bored by the concert though, judging by the general response and the speech mr kwek made after the concert.

it was also the latest one too, ending at 12+, making me lose out on the chance to go back to xinmin

the morning was made more interesting by a agreement made among the db guys though. we agreed to were semi-formal clothes to school so most of us were wearing shirts and jeans and it was kinda aa and weird when walking around the school.

after that, i went with the db guys to walk around orchard. played a short game of pool then had dinner at jack's place.

it was my first time at jack's place, which i think is kinda pathetic. come to think of it, there's like a lot of restaurants that i haven't been to before.

fish & co, all the sushi places, most of the a la carte places in fact.

the fact that i don't have anyone to bring to those places doesn't help

after that, we went to E2Max, which is sorta a huge gaming area at the top of cineleisure. got a gaming room with 4 coms and an xbox inside and it was pretty fun playing inside there, we were like semi-rioting.

good thing the rooms are sound proof.

today( actually is yesterday cos it's past 12 now) was super boring though. went to the temple to pray at my grandma's altar in the morning, which is actually quite weird for me cos i am an atheist and i don't believe in the afterlife.

before i went home and sat at the com till now.

yep, that's my day.

and that's gonna be quite similar for the next couple of days due to the fact that i can't go visit my relatives due to the recent passing away of my grandma.

see how easy it is to go on and on about unhappy stuff while you are at a lost for words when you are trying to blog about happy stuff?

i think bloggers would understand what i am trying to say.

so actually, my life's not all that bad!

eh...ya.

Last Barking On|1:34 AM|

Thursday, February 15, 2007

sigh... no idea why but i suddenly just feel.... sad...

valentine's day just boring when you have nothing to do and not by choice

still, thankfully there's training today to occupied my day or else i think i would just stone the day away

it's the end of yet another stupid valentine's day!

it's just a pity i don't love myself or else life would be so much simpler

Last Barking On|12:10 AM|

Monday, February 12, 2007

Memories

I have no idea why, but my uncle suddenly dug out an old holiday video that included me from 1998 and made it into cds for us and it brought back alot of memories.

i looked damn cute! and blur. and toot too to say the truth.

then i decided to look through the old photos albums for fun and i saw a number of photos of me doing stupid stuff, half of which i don't even remember doing.

i have decided to scan them into the com and burn them into disc to prevent the photos from degenerating further and believe me, some of the photos are degenerating.

and i have the time too, seeing that i won't be out much during the chinese new year, due to the belief that you aren't supposed to celebrate chinese new year if someone in your family passed away recently.

so that's my entire mother's half of the family gone and they are the ones i usually celebrate chinese new year with.

dang.

anyone wanna like invite me over please do so cos i will die if i spend the entire chinese new year at home -_-''...

anyway, the photos also brought me to some not so nice realisation too.

that i haven't taken any photos with my family since primary school and at the lower primary to come to take.

that i don't have any photo of myself growing up since 2000?(i think)

that i only have one family portrait, which is to the zoo, which is like more then 10 years ago

that i have never traveled aboard with my entire family before due to my dad not being able to go off work

that i have a pretty dysfunctional family where my dad haven't even slept in the same room as my mom for years, where my dad don't get along with my mom and sis, i don't get along with my mom and sis, i am neutral towards my dad and the only two who is close is my mom and sis with me and my dad treating the house more as a hotel then a home

can't remember anytime where i actually talked to any member of my family for more then a few sentence except when we are arguing.

pretty sad family eh?

the saddest thing is that i am not really bothered by this and don't really care too much about it

however, if there's one thing for certain though, that is that i will not ever let my own family degrade to this and will make every single effort to ensure that my children always love their home and their parents and my other half shall lead as happy a life as i can possibly managed.

perhaps it really requires for you to have a lousy family to want to create a good family and really treasure it...

perhaps that's why i don't believe in god and am such a firm atheist, because i believe that it's only up to you to make your own life work

i will make my life a good and memorable one.

Last Barking On|12:19 AM|

Saturday, February 10, 2007

damn, can i like recover already?

my cough and sore throat is refusing all my attempts to recover them and it's freaking annoying me to hell!

i wanna be able to train properly damn it.

tomorrow's training not gonna help much either

anyway, i went back to xinmin today to see them get back their results.

i think on the average, they did better then us but our best was better cos even 2a1s managed to get onto the stage this year while we stopped at 8a1s last year.

still, congrats xinmin! hopefully the xinmin name will stay strong till long after i step out to work!

however, at my og side, there paints a different picture.

sigh... i am horrible at comforting people and i have no idea what to do when people are sad -_-''...

hopefully, they will get over it and cheer up soon!

on another note, The One 2007 today was pretty good, at least there wasn't anything horrible sounding and most of them sang better then they did during the auditions.

come on, it's time for me to recover after a week already!

Last Barking On|12:19 AM|

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

just finished watching a show, bruce almighty.

ok, so i am like a few years behind schedule but hey, that doesn't really matter right?

although i am an atheist so i don't exactly believe in god, i still got something out of the show though.

i realised that i often blame others for my mistakes and when something bad happens, i will blame anyone but myself.

though everyone does that at some point in time, it's still nothing good, which just reminds me that i am guilty of it and should try to stay clear of it whenever i can.

something else that i thought about after watching the show, that there maybe someone in the world who truly cares about you and loves you but you may not even realise it till it's too late and that person is more important to you then anything else.

now, who says that watching shows are just a waste of time?

you may not realise it but most good films will leave you thinking about certain issues after the film is over.

though what's really important is what you make of it and what you do about it.

sometimes, don't you find yourself guilty of what you dislike about others? when you discover that, it's an indication that you should do something about it.

it's all in the effort to make yourself a better person and that's what really important isn't it?

Last Barking On|11:42 PM|

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

i am kinda starting to think that my timetable's not all that bad, at least it has one early day and no triple chain lectures or something horrible like that.

gonna live with it i guess, it's loads better then some of the other timetable i have seen .

fever's gone, though the sore throat is still here and it seems to be getting friendlier with my throat everyday such that it seems like it doesn't want to leave. and it even got it's friend mr cough to come.

gotta banish these unwanted guest soon.

seems like it's gonna be a pretty mundane year regarding the academic aspect and an exciting one out of lessons!

i think i should change the address on my IC to the school instead for this year cos i am in the school wayyyy more then i am at home, about 17 hrs in sch and about 7 at home?

i think i prefer it this way though, school's so much more enjoyable then home...

Last Barking On|11:43 PM|

Sunday, February 04, 2007

gah.

for some stupid reason, i woke up with a sore throat and a fever on saturday morning.

the fever stayed at a constant 38.5 throughout yesterday and today, sometimes going down but always climbing back up again.

this is the first time in my memory that i have had a fever that lasted more then one day -_-''...

the worst part of this is the fact that i missed today's training! and right after i posted that long post on yahoogroup, making it crap now.

sigh...

not even sure if i will be going to school tmr.

being sick is a horrible thing when you wanna train but can't...

Last Barking On|10:51 PM|