Yaco

Friday, July 21, 2006

the human mind is such a complex thing, filled with wonderful thoughts and feeling as well as those of the not so wonderful variety.

some people say what they think while others prefer to keep it in their heart but one's thing for sure: no one else will know exactly what you are thinking and the same is true the other way round.

i hate it when somehow my mind tries to guess what others are thinking abt stuff concerning me, because, honestly speaking, i suck at it and 9/10 times, i guess wrongly.

so why do i even bother?

i guess it is just part of human nature, to think is to live.

how i wish the human mind was an open-book that can't hide any desires or feelings and no one will be getting any wrong impression or stuff like that but then that would be impossible.

in a way, it will also take away some of the element of mystery that surrounds it that makes it beautiful in the first place.

still, i wish that i can acertain somethings so i can once again be at peace with myself, though the results will most likely not be the type i want it to be.

how many times do i have to go through this freaking process of happiness, hope, fear then sadness? how long before i can finally get rid of this stupid cycle? i sorely wish that i have more control over thoughts and feelings but they seem to prefer to run wild.

might as well try to rein in a rampaging horse.

but this time round, i wanna do something different. this time, i wanna do nothing and if i can force my mind into it, hope for nothing. because that's the only sure way that i won't lose anything.

better a 100% chance of a small happiness then a 1% chance of a greater happiness that will lose the small happiness if failed.

damn, hope is both a wonderful and a hideously cruel thing.

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