Yaco

Sunday, December 04, 2005

04 December

great. now it is my turn to suffer insomia. kept tossing and turning around in my bed and finally i gave up and used the time to think about somethings.

for a start, i realised how come ppl think i am rich when i am not. how can i be rich when my allowance is pretty average and my occasional extra income comes from my uncle and aunties? then i realised that i gave the impression that i am rich because my money is spent on others instead of myself. come to think of it, the only want that i brought for myself in these two years is my mp3 player! i haven't brought any cds,vcds, books or any other wants for myself at all! omg... i didn't even realise that till last night. that would explain where my money comes from...i didn't buy anything apart from food. -_-''...neither do i have much chance to spend money either cos i don't go out often. damn. pity i am not narcissitic or i can love myself instead and spend money on myself instead of on others.

i still can't forget the first time i set my eyes on you,
for it was as though the world had suddenly light up.
i still can't forget every conversation i had with you,
for every word you said remains etched in my mind.

your every smile, i can't help but mirror.
your every laughter, i always love to hear.
your every tear, like knives through my heart.
helpless though i am to do anything,
i will always be there if you wanna say anything

it's a pity we never even started,
but i have no complain nor regret.
for all the happiness that you brought to me,
can never be repaid by any means

it's unlikely that we will see each other much again,
for we may never meet again.
i just want to say a word of thanks,
for brightening up my life in more ways then you can imagine.

though you won't get to read this,
i still got to say this.
for i never want to forget this,
how i am feeling at this point.
for you are the first one that i ever loved,
and no one can ever take your place in my heart.

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