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Monday, September 12, 2005

12 September

yah! finally changed my blogskin. looks ok... if anyone sees any errors plz tell me hor...

i had trouble falling asleep last night so i thought abt something i read in a manga (GTO), where a student used to live in a tiny room with her mom and dad and they were living happily together, even though they were quite poor. then, her mom and dad succeeded in some business and they became rich. as her house got bigger and bigger, their family drifted further and further apart and the student became more and more unhappy. someone also told me someone related to this.

you know how i always complain abt how small my house is? well, i thought abt it last night and i am starting to think that it is not so bad...

since my house is so small, there is always someone in every room and it is never too quiet. i guess it kinda helps to bring the family together even though i always say my family is not close. i think if we lived in a big house, we would pratically become strangers living under the same roof.

my dad isn't home a lot and you know that i am always at the com which is in the living room so i always get to see him when he comes back. this might sounds weird but it's common pratice in my family to greet elders when you see them for the first time in a day so i greet my dad every day when he comes back. he always watches soccer in the living room so i guess it is abt the only time now that we spend time together, since he's out before i wake up and doesn't get home till like 7. tough job.
if i had my own room in a big house, i think my family members pratically wont ever get to see me, since i even eat at the com and i would forever be in my room. that would like be treating my house like a hotel, a place to sleep nia le. i wouldn't even know if anyone is in the house or when they come back or go out. it would be really sad when you feel like your house is just a house and no longer your home. at least now everyone walks past me wherever they go so i get to see them and i shld be grateful for that...

i always complain abt my sis and how much of a brat she is but come to think of it, it could be much worse. me and my sis share a room so sometimes we would talk late into the night and she would ask me abt problems. well, at least she did last year when she was going to have her psle and she was panicking. if we had our own room, i doubt we will even talk to each other given how bad we get along. well, quarreling beats not talking to your own family members hands down if you ask me.

therefore, i conclude that having a big house isn't always a good thing. it is very easy to lose the bond you have with your family as you are hardly ever with them and you won't be able to talk to them much. it's a horrible feeling for me if you can even hear an echo in your house. a small house is ok as long as you feel comfortable in it and you are glad to call it your home. infact, i think the only disadvantage of living in a hdb is that you can't keep large dogs. god, if you can keep a husky in hdb, i would be happy living in a hdb for the rest of my life.

i shld be grateful for what i have. at least i have a place to call my home. you always feel inferior when you compare yourself to those luckier that you but you nvr know how hard they may have worked for it. i feel very fortunate when i compare myself to those in the poorer countries, where they can't even feed themselves and lose their parents so early on and have to fend for themselves.

being grateful helps you to keep a more positive outlook on life and that makes you happy! at least that's what it says in a article i read yesterday...

god! this is such a long entry! nice start for a new blog =)

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