Sometimes i really wonder what is wrong with me.

I always seem to try too hard, take too long, do too much and always failing to do the right thing at the right time.

How much time and effort have i wasted on all of this already?

I can't help but feel like a fool whenever this happens.

Is there a point to it all?

Am I actually just being a bother while you are entertaining me, feeling annoyed but not wanting to voice it out?

Did I think too much, read too much into things and hope for too much or was I simply being led around like an idiot?

Does the problem lies with who I am, what I do?

Or am I a horrible person who keeps thinking that he is otherwise.

Sigh. Whatever happens, I am really glad that the weekend dinner chat gang is still around. I really appreciate it. I really do.