Yaco

2009-05-29T19:05:00.006+08:00

Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those people on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word "refrigeration" mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk k and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, "How about going to lunch in a half hour?" She would gas up and stammer, "I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, it looks like rain" And my personal favorite: "It's Monday." She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because Americans cram so much into their lives, we tend to schedule our headaches. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained. We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet. We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of "I'm going to," "I plan on," and "Someday, when things are settled down a bit."

When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord.

My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy.

Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to...not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you.

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask "How are you?" Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child, "We'll do it tomorrow." And in your haste, not see his sorrow? Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say "Hi"?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.... Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

"Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!" Life is short; break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.

http://www.rlnn.com/ArtMay07/OPNeverRegretAnythingMakesYouSmile.html

2009-05-20T12:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder what is wrong with me.

I always seem to try too hard, take too long, do too much and always failing to do the right thing at the right time.

How much time and effort have i wasted on all of this already?

I can't help but feel like a fool whenever this happens.

Is there a point to it all?

Am I actually just being a bother while you are entertaining me, feeling annoyed but not wanting to voice it out?

Did I think too much, read too much into things and hope for too much or was I simply being led around like an idiot?

Does the problem lies with who I am, what I do?

Or am I a horrible person who keeps thinking that he is otherwise.

Sigh. Whatever happens, I am really glad that the weekend dinner chat gang is still around. I really appreciate it. I really do.

2009-04-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

ever had this feeling that there are too many thoughts going through your mind and you get the sense that they are all of importance to you but they are flowing through too fast for you to capture and hold on to them for long enough to make sense of them?

i think writing or maybe even blogging is an effective tool for you to hold onto an idea as it comes by and explore it a little, hopefully allowing you to realise something useful to yourself in the meantime.

there might be too many but it doesn't hurt to try does it?

you really do have alot of time to think about the things when you are outfield since 90% of the things you do don't require any brain power. still, your mind would still be blank 90% of the time as you are too tired to think about anything and just stone.

however, it did allow me to realise some things about myself though.

i always sorta knew it but it became more obvious for me recently. i am someone who takes an eye for an eye to the extreme. if you do wrong to me, i may not do anything back and forget about it in a while but it will somehow register in some part of my mind and when i get the chance to or when you need help, do watch out cos i may not be as nice as i seem to be.

on the other hand though, if you help me or are nice to me, i would rarely say a second word when you come to me for help or anything else for that matter.

the problem with this seems to be that i have selective memories and my memories seem to be extremely resistant to change. if i somehow accept the notion that you are a positive or a negative to me, it doesn't change easily as the same few memories of those incidents would override any more recent developments with few regards to their significance.

somehow i think i am blabbering and the above applies to everyone to a certain extent.

gah. whatever. i made a mental note of that as i thought that it's actually not a good thing, given that people do change and i am somehow treating these people inappropriately for what they have become.

humans have so many common flaws that we recognise at some point in time but refuse to or are unable to as they are part of our nature, our programming if you want to think of it that way.

when two different people see the same scene, they can develop vastly different ideas about the issue, depending on how much the issue affects them. when you see like 1000 people died in an earthquake in turkey, the impact it has on you is much less then when you saw the news about the few who died during the dragonboat incident in cambodia.

humans tend to only care about things that concern them. we can't really relate to the earthquake but the dragonboaters who died could have easily been a friend, relative or neighbour who affects your life in someway thus, making a much larger impact to you.

it's like when you see a car crash along the road.

normally you would be like "oh. a car crash. lets see what's the car plate number, maybe can buy 4d"

but what happens when it's the car of someone you know? you would be like " omgwtf! is he ok? has anyone called the ambulance yet? is he still alive? %&^$"

humans are selfish creatures. i had to write an essay that goes something like " Do you think that everything that we do is for our own benefit?" and i agreed with the topic wholeheartedly. no matter what we do, we are doing it because it benefits us.

when we do charity, we feel we are doing a good deed, we feel good, we hope for good karma, we hope that if something ever happens to us, others would help us. whatever. we benefit, be it a mental or physical reward.

we would never do anything to hurt ourselves unless we think that we can get something out of it. as such, we would often interpret the things people say or the incidents you see happen in a way that's most favourable to yourself. it's like a mental failsafe of sorts. can you imagine what state of mind you would be in if you constantly see it from the other side? as such, we would often lie to ourself, even when you have this nagging suspicion that the other side of the coin in the right one.

hmm... too many things going through my brain right now and i am feeling super random. think it will take forever.

god. so much blabbering.

maybe i should go into studying about physology?

Interesting Article

2009-01-31T10:19:00.000+08:00

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003

After so long...

2008-07-20T08:42:00.003+08:00

Wow... I can't believe it's already almost a year since i last blogged. Haha... not very likely that anyone is reading this blog anymore so it would be easier to blog now. There are so many issues and things that are going on in my mind and i have a feeling that i am gonna be here for quite a few hours.

I can't really understand myself why i stopped blogging. Perhaps it's because of laziness? Or a lack of desire to blog about unhappy events or perhaps that life just gets so boring that I don't feel like blogging anymore?

Anyway, quite alot has happened in that time period. After the A's ended, I experienced how difficult it is to find work again and after a long time, managed to find one that i had really wanted for a long time and worked at citibank for several months.

I was quite happy to realise that i enjoyed working, far more then studying or at the present, serving ns. It just sorta fits my character and beliefs cos i was able to finally totally depend on myself and my own income.

Some of my friends know that my family believes in financial independence. Not in the official sense of the word phrase though, which means that you are totally free from any debts and loan and have enough money and investment to not work anymore if you want to. My family usage of the word would be that your money is your money and i don't care what you do with your money as long as you don't ask me for any apart from the norm.

I guess that my family is a little unusual at this part. True, i think i had more allowance then the average kid when i was young if you exclude all the extreme examples of rich ppl but it was like 10-20% more. It came with some weird results though.

Since young, I was pretty much free to buy anything i wanted without having to ask for permission. How many p2-p3 kids do you know that can actually just go and buy a gameboy or those power ranger models themselves when they want it without asking? Though i liked to believe that i actually spent alot more on buying books cos i loved reading when i was young and still do.

There were also unpleasant things that came with that freedom though. I have to pay for just about everything that i wanted. Anyone of you have to pay your own share of the travel expense and accommodation like the cruise fare and the hotel room charge when you are travelling with your own family?

Some ppl think that i am actually rich from the way i spend money but that's kinda far from the truth. I was able to spend like I did back in sec sch was more cos i still had some of the money that my granddad gave me and that i had full access to my bank account unlike most ppl at that point so my bank account was more or less in a single digit state for much of the time since sec 2 or 3 till recently. And also because from around that time, i pretty much stop buying anything for myself apart from food and maybe clothes a couple of times a year.

Instead, i started to develop the habit of preferring to spend on others instead and gave treats now and then. I think it was because i somehow realised that it was easier making myself happy from seeing others happy then to spend on myself and trying to make myself happy. Though that has resulted in quite a few stupid or unpleasant incidents.

I think the habit developed from the first time i treated anyone to anything. It was during my birthday in sec 2 and i remember that it was on the way back from some school outing or the other. At that time, i really wanted people to celebrate my birthday because my birthday was pretty much not celebrated at all in the years before since my family don't really believe in celebrating birthday and my dad hasn't had any idea of when my birthday is for like more then 10 years.

I was desperate. And at that time, i also really wanted yinning to go along as well but couldn't think of anyway to ask unless there was a large number of ppl going along as well so i ended up treating part of the class to kfc because it wasn't likely that anyone would celebrate my birthday otherwise. No matter how it came about, it was really the first time that any group actually celebrated my birthday so i was really, really touched and happy.

To me, birthdays are really important since it's the day you came into this world and changed the lives of those around you so i really value birthdays. However, maybe it's also cause my family don't celebrate it and it's human nature that the more they can't or don't get something, the more they want it.

It's also for that reason that if you had read my blog in the past, you may remember that my birthdays after that were some of the most unhappy days of my life. I came to expect too much and i somehow ended up spending the actual day of my birthday alone at home for a few years after that feeling sorry for myself.

Anyway, on the subject of birthdays, yesterday was kobe'a 19th and one of my ex-collegue, guozheng's 21st birthday celebration. Kobe's was a k-box session and guozheng's was a bbq at his house. One thing really made an impact to me though and it was that guozheng actually requested to make a speech before blowing out the candles and cutting the cake. He thanked his parents for organizing the party for him and then proceeded to thank each of the different groups that came and how much he appreciated it and he was tearing by the end of his speech. Initially i was laughing and thinking that it was quite weird to be making a speech and then tearing by the end of it but when i thought about it, i think i may have ended up tearing more then him.

I really envy those ppl who have tight-knitted, happy families who feels comfortable hugging their parents and siblings as i saw guozheng doing every few minutes. Some ppl always seem to keep complaining about how their parents would forbid them from doing this and restrict them from doing that and how much they wanted freedom. But ppl will always just want what they don't get. I got freedom, as much freedom as anyone wants but sometimes i actually end up thinking that i would be quite happy if my parents sometimes ask where i am going and when i am coming back. My family is pretty a individualistic style and everyone just go about doing their own thing. It's not like I hate my family or anything. I believe that my parents are good ppl and it's not like they dun care about me or anything but we just don't know how to or feel uncomfortable about expressing our feelings, resulting in rather bad relationship. My mom and sis are quite close to each other, mom and dad can't stand each other and my sis positively dislike/hate my dad while i am pretty much in neutral grounds and ignores everything.

Mom and dad just don't get along with each other and my dad has been sleeping in the living room for like 8 years now. With me being the neutral party, they always complain about each other to me and I grew numb to it after a while. I tried to tell each of them what the other thinks at the start but both of them are too stubborn to listen. I think the main reason that we are still living together and they have not divorced is that it is too troublesome to get one with all the procedures and that neither have any kind of financial ability to do that or to move out. My sis, being close to my mom thus hates my dad and always express how useless she thinks he is.

The reason for that is because she still can't understand why my family is in such bad financial condition. My dad is a butcher and unknown to most ppl, most butcher actually do quite well financially and that was the case in the past when granddad was still alive and well and my uncle and dad was working under and listening to him. But as my granddad got cancer and then past away, the family's financial situation became worse and worse because my dad and my uncle both doesn't have any kind of financial sense and aren't exactly wise. When ppl move house, most change up or just change location but my family moved from a 2 floor hdb to a 4 room one then to a 3 room one and now my dad is talking abt selling it and i have no idea where's next. The problem initially was because of gambling but the cause for the recent ones doesn't seem to be cos of gambling. It's more like because they have no business sense because i have no idea how can they keep owing money when they are butchers.

Many of the ppl who knew me from the army often thinks that i am quite money-minded since i am always reading some books about finance and stocks and the likes. But i think it's pretty normal when i think about how much money affects my family's life. I think it's also the reason why I am so interested in banking, finance, stocks and the like.

There are many who grew up in pretty well to do family and often, they have no idea how hard it is to make money or suffer from a lack of it and results in them having mentality that makes me agitated when I hear them saying stuff like how unhappy they are cos they can't get that new/pretty whatever or stuff like uni fees are cheap while I am trying to think of ways to fund my uni education cos my parents would be unable to pay any of it.

On the other hand though, when I really think about it, I can't really complain too much when you know that there are many ppl who have it worse then you. There are those whose family have split up or have lost a kin. There are those who are in even more dire financial status. There are those who are unable to do anything about the situation they are in.

At least I still live with my family. At least I still have a home. At least whatever financial problems I have went through has matured my thinking and will drive me and give an edge in the future. At least I am born with reasonable intelligence and sense. At least I have an education. At least I am given the chance to fight back and change things.

2007-10-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

getting too lazy to blog recently since there weren't that many events which i can actually be bothered with but i felt like slacking and this is as good a use of slacking time as anything else so here i am!

come to think of it though, quite a few things happened over the past couple of weeks.

got back my prelims results and it was pretty much what i expected, a mixture of c's and d's. should be alright if nothing goes wrong.

anyway, something really embarrassing happened the day before we graduate. when i went onto the stage to collect the econs quiz prize, i fell off the stage when i was walking down the steps and landed on my butt in front of the whole j2. -_-''...

god, at that point i seriously wanted to find a hole and just bury myself in it. it's like so paiseh la! fall down for no reason in front of so many ppl.

then it was the graduation ceremony on wed where we saw ppl collect prizes and then was shown some video clips made by the tutors. pretty interesting clip and pretty funny too, especially the gp part! i think jc teachers are more sporting and have less of a need to keep up their image as compared to secondary school ones since we are really old enough to tell what is an act and what is not.

still, i think it was pretty bad that i didn't feel all that much emotion when we were supposed to have " graduated". it was more of the "graduated then graduated lor... still need to study for A lvl..." that kind of mood.

i suppose the real impact of graduating will come when we finish the last paper ba.

mugging for the A's seriously screws up your interpersonal skills. can you even recall the last decent length conversation about nothing, ie chatting was?

now everyone is like almost a hi bye friend or just some people who happens to have the same meal time or share the same studying space as you and not so much people who you can talk to now, which is kinda saddening.

hopefully things will pick up after the A's if not jc may seriously become something that doesn't leave much memories.

as much as i hate to say this, i have no love for my class at all, compared to the times in xinmin where i actually care about what is happening to almost everyone in the class and would willingly spend tons of time on doing stuff for them. for the jc class though, it is more like i can't be bothered to give a damn.

it may be a problem with me or with the class or just simply with the way our lessons separates us so much. i suppose the real reason is that we simply don't click ba. i actually get along much better with random people from other classes that i have no connections with( like not same cca, no similar lessons etc) much better then i do with the people from my own class. kinda sad that this had to happen.

however, like in ny has generally been pretty good though. i have had some good teachers( hazel ho, jane chong, mr ng) and some bad ones whom i think everyone knows. pretty interesting that we call most of the teachers by their full name for those without christian names and those with christian names by their christian names+ their surname without the mr/miss/mrs infront. seems kinda rude but there's just too many teachers in a jc so too many people share the same surname. it's more for convenience sake rather then out of disrespect.

mr kwek is a good guy, down to earth and real. how many principals do you know that will actually chat to you and greet you before you greet them? he is one of the principal that i respect the most so far. true, he is kinda lo sor at times but he is not talking complete rubbish all the time so it makes it much more bearable then it might be.

then of course there's db! i think i would have sunk into depression and become anti-social ages ago if not for this interesting bunch of people, made up of the weirdest group that i can imagine together. i think i shall do a walk down memory lane with you guys after the A's are over, kinda like what i did for 4e4 back then. man... gonna take up a good part of a week if my memories serves me right.

still, gotta do it for you guys since you guys deserve it!

and then there's the different groups of people whom i have met through different activities and have become good friends with as well! 0607, orientation 1 de og, 0g 13 and the different people whom i have got to know through the interactions in jc as well! if there's one thing i didn't regret, it's taking part in as many of these extra activities as i could since i have met so many people that i wouldn't have otherwise.

so much that is about to just become memories...

it's just two weeks till the A's are here and one more month till the end of it!

i am both dreading the end of it since i have no idea of what's to come and at the same time, can't wait for it since i am honestly super sick of studying le.

i guess i shall see when the time comes!

i don't think i am likely to be blogging much more after this though so i shall come back after the A's~

oh yeah, i am enlisting on 11 apr, bmtc 1 at 10:30! anyone else same as me? i know of quite a few already.

2007-10-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能觉得足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

2007-09-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

hmm...i think i took a very long break over the past few days after the prelims.

spent most of the time at home staring at the com apart from two afternoon of mahjong though.

i think i really need to get out more... though then the problem would be to find people who are free or bored enough...

haiz...

anyway, i found a site that allows you to dl ebooks for free so i was able to get a few book that i have wanted to read for a while but was too lazy to get.

that and the fact that i am a little too old for them lol...

anyway, i started on those series back when i was young and they still provide good enjoyment so i don't really see why not to reading them so i finished atermis fowl and the lost colony, eragon and eldest in the past few days.

pretty good reading.

anyway. the break has ended so it's back to mugging starting tmr!

gotta start building up the momentum again though.

oh yeah, i just remembered! celebrated mid-autumn festival early with the e4 ppl on sat which was a pretty fun time talking crap and just relaxing.

kinda lazy to blog too much about it since hj has pretty much said everything in her blog already so i shall just post a few photos!

preparing...

done!

the gang

kobe acting cute...

jy and wy's attempt at a stunt

the girl's attempt

my attempt to frighten the little kids celebrating at the primary school opposite

which turn out not so scary.

us with the lanterns!

i demostrated my little trick with the sparklers..

then everyone joined in!

yj, caught in the crossfire: wah! you all wanna burn me to death ar?

joanne's incomplete circle

and my completed circle!

ran out of sparklers after that lol... cos the way we play with it makes it last like 5 seconds instead of the normal time.

it was pretty fun though!

quite a nice way to relax...

hmm... maybe i will go to the park later and join in the fun!

2007-09-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

well, the prelims are over already and it went alright i guess, except for econs essays which is pretty much a gone case.

not gonna do too well for geo either cos i was over confident and didn't prepare well for it.

a mistake made is a mistake learned then. not gonna happen again for the A's!

seriously though, i think the gaps inbetween the papers are way too large. i had a four days break between the papers which totally destroyed my motivation for the second half of the exams cos i was pretty much in a post exam mood already.

bad idea.

shall take a rest these few days and then start studying after school starts again next wednesday! maybe if i feel guilty before that, i might start studying a little.

lol... who am i kidding man.

sigh... i wish someone would come and tell me what i have been doing right and what i have done wrong though. it's just too hard to try and understand someone's mind, especially if you think too much about the consequence of your actions and even more so when what you are telling yourself and what you and your heart is actually doing and thinking is so different!

dumb ass la me.

anyway, while studying econs last week, my mind wandered off and thought of something dumb. with all the hell money that we burn every year during the seventh month, won't there be major inflation taking place every year?

and i pity the accountants over there who have to work with the ridiculous amount of digits they print on those money lol...

2007-09-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

the study break is almost over and the prelim is about to start!

hmm... to be honest, i have always enjoyed the period before the start of the exams where the only thing you are expected to do is to study and no one bothers you about anything else.

no rushing of homework, no deadlines to meet and no boring lessons to doze off in.

just you, a few friends and your huge stack of notes that you attempt to conquer, bit by bit, day by day at your own pace.

don't you agree that it is actually quite enjoyable?

the past week has been pretty good, waking up at a comfortable, natural time (9.30 for me) instead of having to drag yourself off your bed and then resting a while before going to school to study.

balancing work and play is the only problem now. kinda didn't do too well on that so i am behind schedule by a day or two but i should get through fine i guess. well, enough for prelims anyway.

i have no interest in peaking at the prelims and going downhill after that so i shall just continue whatever i am doing and then peak at the A's.

anyway, enough about that stuff, just wanna share some interesting thing that i thought of while my mind drifted off when i was studying. i remember that there was alot of stuff but i can't recall them now so here is just one.

this one came to me when i was studying population geo.

anyone noticed that there seems to be alot more girls then guys in almost every jc? asking around, that seems to be the case.

so why is that? is it that girls are smarter then guys? (i can see some of the feminist nodding vigorously) or is it that there are more guys who are equally as smart but have decided to take a risk and go onto the poly route, knowing exactly what they want to do while leaving us undecided folks over at the boring jc system. take my secondary school class for instance, everyone of the guys could easily make it to a jc, with almost everyone scoring 10 and below but yet out of the 9, 4 went to poly, though admittedly for a variety of reasons. but out of the 21 girls, i think less then 5 went to poly.

so it may be that the guys have decided on their career path earlier and are thus more adventurous instead of the idea that they are less smart then girls.

either side, there are rooms for argument and i think it would make a pretty interesting topic to talk about the next time i meet the guys.

darn, i can't remember the rest of the stuff that i wanted to blog about so this shall be it for now!

good luck for the prelims everyone!

2007-08-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

finally found the time to blog!

actually wanted to blog last sat after the trip to sentosa but i got lazy and managed to procrastinate till today lol...

hmm... what happened in the last couple of weeks?

well, the prelims closed in to just one week left and i am still managing to procrastinate enough to make me feel guilty at times to want to study hard but when i start, it just doesn't seem to flow well.

hopefully i won't need to resort to pressing the panic button to force myself to study...

met up with xe4 on sat to go to sentosa and after the usual lateness from the usual people, we got to sentosa at around 11 and lazed around, played cards, soccer as well as the usual nua-ing in the sea before going to vivocity's food republic for dinner. jy and i sponsored $100 for the dinner and surprisingly, it was enough to get a decent meal for our table of 10 despite the rather expensive food there.

food wasn't too bad, though it was more of tasting abit of everything and most of it was pretty cold by the time all the food came and everyone settled down.

gp prelims yesterday wasn't too bad, i did an interesting question that i have yet to hear of anyone else doing so far lol... Explain the significance of water. still, i guess gp is pretty ok.

then went back to xinmin today for teacher's day! went to ny for the celebration first but compared to last year, it was honestly horrible with a rather boring program that i doubt many people liked...

xinmin was not bad though. it wasn't the concert itself but the many people you get to catch up with! miss ng is still as nice as ever! though it's been a while since we had a really good talk with her...

according to others, our class had the most number of people that went back to xinmin despite being the smallest class back in our batch! haha... guess our class knows what is ying shui si yuan and the fact that miss ng was so nice to us helped.

had lunch with 4e4 before some of us went to yj's house for a gaming session! been a while since i had such a good laugh and time playing console games.

yj is a good host and so is his mom, supplying us with plenty of food!

then had dinner with an even smaller group but i laughed till i nearly had side splits.

i realised today that it's still the people from secondary school that i feel the most comfortable with and can totally be myself, laughing and behaving like an idiot without feeling the slightly bit embarrassed, even beyond the level of comfort that i feel with db people. i guess it is a different kind of closeness, db is more that of a brotherhood that allows you to really feel the team spirit and they still remained the only people whom i have cried for during the competitions but the e4 gang is of a different type, more like those close friends that you can tell almost everything to and still feel comfortable around them, since they have practically seen every side of you that there is to be seen.

to think back though, i think the level of closeness is built up by all the long, long conversations late into the night that last for like more then 5 hours at a time, which is something that mainly happened after the O levels ended and we had alot of time to talk, which isn't something that we could do alot with the jc group of people when everyone has such a busy schedule. maybe after the A's, the people i know now will become closer?

i can really believe that the e4 ppl, at least the core group of us will still keep in contact for many years to come...

some say that the friends you make in secondary school are the friends that you will keep for life while others say it is those that you make in jc and there are yet others that say it is those from army.

so which one is it? for now, i am tempted to believe that the secondary one will last for quite a while.

i guess it's really up to time to tell though!

2007-08-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

sigh... same old same old...

i never seem to ever enjoy my birthdays from what i can remember.

it's usually one of the worst few days of the year for me as far as i am concerned.

i would prefer so much more to celebrate anyone's else birthday other then mine since seeing others happy is a much easier way to be happy then trying to make myself happy.

a random scolding session scolding by my mom right at midnight spoiled my mood for the entire day so i was in a pretty bad mood the whole day.

well, there's that and there's something else too which isn't too convenient to say.

sigh...just wishing for the same thing every year which doesn't come true is starting to get...

just wishing for that someone to be among the first few to wish you a happy birthday isn't too much to ask right?

haiz...why can't i just do as my brain is telling me is the right thing to do but think of other stupid stuff instead?

anyway, thanks to everyone who wished me and thanks for the shirt and the files!

2007-08-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

been quite a long while since i last blogged but that's mainly cos there isn't that much going on.

i mean, what can you blog about when the only thing that you have been doing apart from studying is the occasional breaks?

ok, make that slightly more then occasional.

ah well, i gotta work harder i guess.

just 3 more weeks to the prelims and then a few more again to the A's!

god, i can't wait for it to be over.

apart from life being a little mundane and boring, it's been pretty good though. no big rush to complete this or that work very often now and things have sorta slowed down.

i am trying to recall anything interesting that happened over the past few weeks but few stuff comes to mind apart from wy's birthday and the master's series today.

good to see the j1's are doing a pretty good job so far!

i just missed rowing really badly when i see them row though...

hao huai nian ar...

though i think the weeks of little to no exercise has made me into a lazy bum that don't even like moving around too much. hopefully my body holds on and don't fall sick or anything till after the A's.

army prep time then! still considering if i should join safsa though...

for now though, it's just study and more study.

shall update again if any interesting stuff happens!

2007-08-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

Wohoo! Sentosa trip on sat!

i think it will be the last sentosa outing for quite a while though

it was our farewell party organised by the j1s and as usual, the seniors were all like super late.

whatever happened to the virtue of punctuality!

i reached at like 12.10 and we left harbourfront at close to 2?

anyway, it was a pretty great day out at sentosa overall with loads of games and fun

pity we reached way too late to tan properly though.

the rugby match was fun! though i think everyone ended up with little cuts all over.

mass random tossing people into the sea was fun too!

ahh... gonna miss being able to relax properly soon...

2007-08-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

And so begins the life of a mugger.

yep, that pretty much sums up most of what i have been doing for the past couple of weeks.

my first meet the parents session passed by without anything happening since she didn't have much to say to my mom and i was free to go within 5 minutes.

still, comparing the way everyone is mugging, i am still quite a way behind. can't really get into it yet.

the way some of them are studying seems to be definite burn-out cases though...

on the other hand, i am way too slack.

shall pick up into a nice pace then!

2007-07-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

wohoo~

finished the final harry potter book!

would have finished the book like 5 hrs ago if i didn't go for the sa dance concert...

i am not complaining though, the concert was good, though the location was stupid, being in mediacorp, not exactly the most accessible place without a car.

still, it was my first time inside there and it was pretty cool though i am a little confounded by the design of the place and it was much smaller then i expected it to be though.

reading the final book, i seriously felt my pace slow down towards the end as i really didn't want it to end. it seems way too short compared to the last few books but somehow, it felt right.

not gonna post any spoilers about it since i don't like spoilers myself.

time to read the book if you have not!

2007-07-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

hmm... i just realised that the previous post was the 500th post!

i don't think that i have expected to continue blogging for as long as i did and i guess alot have changed over time.

for a start, the way i blog have changed quite abit and i guess the purpose did as well.

when i first started blogging, i was kinda an insecure attention seeking kid that wanted people to reach my blog and would ask people to tag, getting irritated if there is no tags for days on end.

but as the years passed, the reason i still blog is more of a preservation of my own memories so that when i grow old and senile, i can still look back and see what kind of a person i am and what i went through.

of course, the old and senile part is an exaggeration, i effectively forget what i have done or say within a week of them happening, unless it was something significant so i can be reading my own entries just a year later and wonder, did i really do that?

that's provided that blogger still exist of course.

hmm... maybe someday i ought to save all my old entries into my com in the off chance that blogger close down.

another thing that have changed is that i don't get bothered if no one reads my blog or tag since the purpose for it has changed. frankly, i don't give two hoots if i just end up talking to myself itself of it being a blog.

ahh... how times have changed... and i feel older all of a sudden. -_-''...

hmm....so what happened over the past week?

oh yeah, we got back all the test papers and well, let's just say that my predictions were more or less right and just looking at it, it is supposed to be a wake-up call but i guess it is either not loud enough or that i have become partially deaf cos i still don't feel the urge to study.

by right, i should be feeling it cos it's like the worst result i have ever gotten but i guess the fact that i didn't study much for it ended up making me feel like i deserved whatever i got.

still, i really gotta start studying soon or i am one dead person who shall be left on the streets not knowing where to go when i get back my results next year.

and i can't afford to do badly for my prelims either, considering that they put you into different platoons for ns based on your prelims results?

what else...oh yeah!

xinfony on friday! it was pretty good i think, though the fact that i hardly recognised anyone over there was kinda boring. went for a supper at the prata house before going home. man... all the weird pratas that they come up with. plaster prata? it didn't taste too bad though.

then it was shopping for kobe's present on sat. there's a ridiculous amount of people who have birthdays in july and august, myself included. i am like wondering where all the money is going to come from for all the presents, especially since i am being blackmailed by my old classmates who wants a treat if i am to get a present. + paying for the rest of the harry potter books + the concerts ticket prices + the revision stuff the school wants us to print. chem alone is $35!

oh man... serious budget deficit!!!

i think i should start considering 4-D or toto.

anyone have been dreaming of any numbers lately?

2007-07-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

oh man... i am seriously sunburned!

went to sentosa with the guys on sunday and just spent the day there...

our timing was kinda crazy though, reached there at like 9 so we were baking in the super hot sun all they way till 4+.

can't remember the last time i got sunburnt so bad that my lips are cracking and the skin on my forehead, nose and back are also definitely gonna peel in a few days...man... what a sight that will be -_-''...

anyway, the main project of the day was digging two holes that were about 1.5m deep that could fit one of us comfortably inside and get this, we actually managed to link the two hole that were about 2m apart, forming a tunnel on the beach!

-_-''...

we were damn bored.

and before we left, i got buried in the hole so that only my head was left on the ground like some bodiless corpse while i got tortured by them.

zzz...

monday was a day where we dressed up formally for some grooming course. felt kinda stupid going to school in corporate attire when so few others is wearing though. the course itself was only marginally useful though, seeing that there were alot of stuff that i already knew. oh well, at least it wasn't too boring.

went bowling after that! last few days of $1 a game bowling so we played quite a few games. kinda lost my touch for it and didn't play too well...still, it was fun!

then today was another stupid talk and class photo taking. mahjong after that! was losing quite abit initially but managed to caught up near the end and win a little.

the fun is over though, proper school starts again tomorrow!

2007-07-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

wohoo! exams is over!

strangely enough, i wasn't all that excited about the end of it nor felt any sense of joy.

maybe it's because of the 5 days break i had that i sorta treated as post exam?

or maybe it was because i didn't really put much effort into it so it ending doesn't have much impact.

like they say, if you dun put in your best then winning it doesn't feel exciting at all.

or something along that line.

oh well, i should enjoy myself for now and prepare for the wake-up call the results are gonna gimme.

i am kinda hoping that i will feel damn screwed up after i get back the results so that it will force me to study, at least for a little while, else i become complacent.

though judging from the tests, i should be getting what i hope for lol...

anyway, today was mainly spent wasting time enjoyablely with the db ppl. though i would have much preferred east coast or something else rather then basketball which i am sad to say that i am totally hopeless at.

oh well, at least we are going to sentosa on sun and there's mahjong tmr!

and some weird exibition that ben heng wanna show me at toa payoh lib on sat... totally no idea what it is supposed to be.

i just remembered something interesting that i read about in the newspaper a while back.

you know about the yellow livestrong wristband that alot of people wore a couple of years back?

well, this one is a purple one that some priest somewhere started and gave to lots of people.

it comes with an interesting twist though. for this one, you put one on one of your wrist and whenever you complain,gossip or criticize , you will change it to the other hand. the goal is to leave it on one hand for 21 days, which is the time needed to form a good habit.

the idea is to get people to stop complaining and think positively about everything.

which i think is a great idea!

i think we all complain way too much, myself included.

though i think i will take like a year to form that good habit... the priest himself took 7 months!

wouldn't the world be a much better place if everyone just complained a little less?

edit: i found it fascinating enough that i actually ordered the wristbands from their website. it's perfectly free so i ordered 30 to give to some of the ppl i know who might be interested. gonna take like 6 weeks to come though.

2007-07-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

good day today!

woke up earlier then i wanted to today to go and watch the j1's race at the db fest.

seeing everyone and all the different stuff, i still feel kinda sad that we missed out the chance to row for the db fest, which is like the main event for any db ppl?

last year, our seniors went.

this year, our juniors went.

-_-''.... why skip us???

anyway, j1s, treasure the chance that you get to row for it and do us proud k?

went to meet vic after that for a sorta lunch+ chit chat session like always. nice catching up with her!

went to some street that was just outside bugis junction( not bugis street) that had like alot of little restaurant-shophouses and the food there looks pretty good and the decor was pretty nice too. beats paying a higher price for a more crowded place in bugis junction anyday if you ask me. loads of variety too! i saw thai, jap, korean, taiwan, western, shanghai, hong kong, chinese deserts and the more normal stuff like zi char there.

tried the western food at phin's which was pretty nice though i think i am still trying to get over the food ban and getting use to eating fried food again so i found i couldn't eat too much of them...

walked around for a while after that before going to meet the guys for movie!

transformers! a must watch!

i initially didn't think too highly of it since the cartoon is like so old and i didn't have too good an impression of it but the movie blew me away!

it's like two and a half hours of solid action and going BOOM BOOM BOOM at you throughout! it's worth watching it another time just for the effects and the action alone! anyone interested in watching the movie? we sat pretty near the front at the third row but for once, it was good as we could really feel the effect! i think it's more of a guys show though...

still, go watch it ppl! it's worth the money!

2007-06-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

finally got the time to do a proper post!

though now the problem is recalling what i wanted to blog about....

argh. me and my faulty memory.

ok.... let's try and go in chronological order. super long post coming up! just skip the whole till if you aren't interested.

the last few trainings went alright, apart from the fact that i fell sick and was like super scared cos mr hee said only those who were at 100% will be rowing.

imagine if i didn't get to row at all due to some stupid cough!!!

i think i will go and jump into the reservoir or something out of depression

the thing was my sickness didn't recover, not even till now.

luckily though, it wasn't that serious so i still managed to row on the race day.

race day!

actually the main thing is all the emotions we felt but i think it's impossible for me to say it in words so i shall just be mainly describing the events.

god, i feel like i am writing a report to myself or something. ah well, as long as it will help me remember what happened!

no emo post for now first. i shall save it for another time!

went to school to watch some videos of us rowing first.

somehow, the mood didn't feel too right though, cos everyone was still like not serious and stuff compared to last year.

went off to bedok after that! i think i started to panic alittle after we got onto the bus. all those what if just couldn't get out of my mind but luckily, i managed to calm down before we got off the bus.

the first race was the 10 men heats and my boat got into the crazy heats with all the team As from other sch and i guess that unnerved me and the rest a little. we didn't really rowed well and do what we usually do. the feeling when we were rowing were simply not right. in the end, i thought we got third but turns out we got 4th by 0.21 seconds and were out of the finals( first 3 from each heat into the finals)

the other senior boat managed to get into the finals for the 10 men and i become their drummer.

first time in my life that i actually became a drummer lol...

anyway, from the drummer seat, i could tell that everyone was still afraid, afraid that all our efforts of the past 1 and a half years would go to waste if we didn't perform well enough
during that 2 odd minutes. they tried their best but it still wasn't the best they could do judging from the mood on the boat but they lost to the better teams in the end.

no medals from the 10-men category.

by this point, the mood was really not right.

luckily, before the next race, we managed to set everything right again. yiyang managed to calm us down and made us get back the correct feel again. though in the process, half of us ended up tearing like idiots as all the emotions of the past 1 and a half years flooded us, myself included.

i think i have only shed tears openly twice in the god knows know many years in i started school and both were during the A div, both last year and this year, though for very different reason.

the mood was good again and we went down for the final race of our career. the last time we will ever row together as a team. god, the feeling was incredible. but i have no idea how to describe it so it shall remain the guys team own memories.

to be honest, after the talk, the results didn't matter much to us anymore but i guess that's the only thing that outsiders will care about so...

we got 3rd.

not exactly the best result but it was a close fight for second but we lost it due to some complication.

the first was nj and i really have to admit, they are really on a totally different level.

heck, in our last race, they even beat ntu and nus, getting first place overall in the masters. and that is an open category event.

sick ppl. but you really gotta hand it to them, we lost to a better team.

still, it was the best set we ever row and the feeling was good as you see all smiles after the race.

we were contented.

after the race though, everyone rust off to their respective showering places before meeting again for the post race dinner at paris international buffet.

the guys decided to wear formal so it was pretty funny to see everyone dress up.

we were dying from the food ban that we have endured for a month so we were all more then prepare to raid the place and raid the place we did.

food ban: no fried food of any type, no cold drinks and nothing that looks unhealthy.

so we were basically surviving on the type of food that i usually wouldn't even touch in the past for 1 month and it was hot tea for every meal.

after eating everything that we were not supposed to before the race, we ended up spending the rest of the night just taking pictures instead of eating like we planned to.

just as well, seeing that the food wasn't really all that great. i would only say it's average...

tons and tons of photos we took!

there was plenty of memory to be gathered and we took our time.

after the dinner, some of us went to a pub in serangoon. i think it was liquid kitchen or something if i am not wrong...

take note that it was sunday by the timing and mid years was on monday.

crazy ppl.

it was my first time to a pub though so it wasn't too bad.

the names of the drinks were pretty interesting though.

sex on the beach? blowjob?

i felt like ordering them to see what they are like but i dun really feel like saying " I want a blowjob" to the waiter so i had something that sounded more reasonable.

after much talking, i think we left at about 4am

i think that's basically all the stuff i can recall cos the rest of the time after that was just mugging and taking the exams.

rinse and repeat.

gah. who the hell have the mood to have exams!! i think most ppl from the team only had db on their mind...

for some stupid reason, i went into emo mode on monday morning and ended up sending a 7 sms long disgusting-till-too-gross-to-be-repeated-here message to the whole guys team and got cursed by them for spoiling their exam mood lol...

then it was exams exams exams... i would be thankful if i can just pass everything, judging by the level of preparedness i was in. first time in my life that i went for an exam without even finish simply reading through half the stuff i am supposed to.

oh well, mid years doesn't really matter at this point.

photos!

many more but they are taking too long to upload so i shall upload them another time time. (hopefully)

2007-06-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

oh man!!!! so much to say and so little time!!!

no time to update now else i fall asleep again in the exams so i will try to update on everything asap

for now, i just wanna say that db rocks my world and studying sucks to hell!

2007-06-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy!

training on sat, which improved after the two race sets with SIM in the cold rain!

then 10 of the guys went to work at some event for the dairy farm group's family day and that lasted from 2pm to 12pm.

basically, we were paid to do whatever they tell us to do which was setting up some stuff and doing nothing much most of the time.

it was actually supposed to end at like 8 but due to some problem with the client, most of the work we done during the day had to be redone and we left at midnight while some other ppl continued work into the night.

super expensive cab home. good thing it was claimable.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention that the work was at the singapore discovery centre in boon lay -_-''...

weird place to have a family day don't you think?

the next day was the event itself and it was more or less doing nothing but stand around for me.

super inefficient manpower management if you ask me.

oh well, as long as i get paid.

today's the last day of training at kallang! borrowed hj's camera to take pics and oh boy did i take alot of pics.

kinda late and too lazy to put them up here so i will put them up another day.

training's good!

only two more left till the big one!

oh. man.

2007-06-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

i actually went to queue for the donuts from donut factory today!

queue with a couple of the db guys to buy for the whole team.

we went there at 10.30 when it opens at 12.30 and there were already quite a long queue!

horrifying how much people are willing to queue.

finally got it after queuing for 2.5 hrs and my conclusion after eating them was that it's nice but i wouldn't queue for it if i want it, only if i am queuing to buy it for others.

well, i guess i am weird in this way. i am much more willing to spend time and money on others rather then myself.

is this supposed to be good?

training today was kinda horrible though, i got pinpointed by mr hee quite a few times today and despite my best efforts to change, it doesn't seem to work

=(

damn, i can't afford to screw up at this kinda time!!!

must do better tmr!

oh yeah, i realised that i got a horrible memory.

actually, i knew that i have a bad memory ages ago but only realised the extent of it recently when i repeatedly forgot to bring stuff home or forgot stuff...

just to give an example, when i was packing my bag a couple of days ago, i realised that i have forgotten to take the water bottle and walked towards the kitchen to get it but by the time i reached the kitchen, i have already forgotten what i wanted to get and spent 10 seconds trying to remember what it was that i walked to the kitchen for.

and mind you, my house is not exactly big so the walk from my bag to the kitchen is like 5 seconds?

good grief, what kind of memory is that???

time is passing at a crazy rate though. the holiday is almost over and i haven even done much yet!!!

have yet to even take a proper day off to relax and do what i want to.

instead, it was either training or studying.

actually what i really wanna do now is to take a day off and do nothing at all, enjoying the sun and the breeze at either sentosa or east coast park but i dun really wanna go there alone though...

anyone free enough to go with me?

2007-06-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

hmm... something unpleasant happened on sunday during training that i shall not elaborate too much on but luckily, it has been resolved on the tuesday's training.

though i also noticed how often people commit the yi zhu gan da fan quan chuan ren thing or stereotyping.

ah well, just gotta accept it i guess.

like they say, it is much easier to try and change yourself rather then attempt to change others.

on another note, it was games day today!

in other words, we just played different sports from morning till night.

so right now, i am exhausted and in need of sleep.

good night then!

2007-06-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

hmm... to be honest, i really can't see much point in blogging for this period of time since the only stuff i am doing everyday is either training, playing com or studying( way too little of this then i am supposed to)

omg, after counting, there is only 7 more trainings till the race and the end of my db career.

SEVEN!

that's like so freaking little la! i dun want it to end!!!! and i have absolutely no idea what i am gonna do after i step down.

gonna feel so freaking empty.

to be honest, i am at least 10 times more worried about the race then the mid-years, of which i still feel zero stress about, seeing that i have pretty much given up on it with the amount of time i got.

i am gonna become like freaking white a couple of months after i step down, like what the seniors look like after they step down.

oh man.

what am i gonna do everyday after school without training sia...

on another note though, a few of us went to jiabing's house to play mahjong today after training, which is in...woodlands...

not exactly the most convenient place.

haha...lost abit of money in the end but doesn't really matter cos it was a pretty enjoyable session with alot of suaning going on.

oh yeah, he got a damn cute dog that's super friendly!

damn, i want a dog.

training again tomorrow! after that there will only be 6 more.... nooOOoOOooOoo!!!

oh yeah, i am sick again at this kinda stupid timing.

not gonna stop me from going for training though!

gotta rest early so cya all!

2007-06-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

things are progressing smoothly so far, training's going well and there hasn't been much problem in life so far

well, with the exception that i haven't started my revision for the mid-years :X

oh well, guess i gotta start soon then!

hopefully it will continue to be smooth sailing for the rest of the holidays then it will be back to mundane old school life.

for now though, db and studies are gonna be the only things that matter!

yep, in that order.

dun really care all that much about the mid years to say the truth.

enjoy your holidays ppl!

2007-05-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

woah! what a packed weekend!

let's see... sat was gp exam, which went pretty well. i took a gamble and did something weird with the question. if the teacher doesn't accept it, then my essay is a comfirm fail but hopefully it will be accepted?

then it was preparation for the race after that.

then sunday was the race itself!

it seemed to fly by in a flash that i can't really recall much of it. there were quite a few surprises here and there, with some of the teams suddenly becoming good all of a sudden, which was rather surprising.

the j1s didn't really performed very well and neither did we, only managing a third in the minor finals.

i think we could have done better then that. still got quite a few stuff to work on...

gonna push all the way for the short time left!

oh yeah, my com power supply blew on sat night, causing the whole house to black out.

when i opened up the casing, oh man... everything was full of dust!

try to clear out the dust a little but it didn't really helped...

got someone to fixed it today. expensive though.... $185, inclusive of a new power supply. i think i should have just brought it to sim lim.

chem spa today too! though it was kinda boring, more or less just copying the same thing out again...

went a short mahjong session before the repairs and for the first time ever, i actually won a decent amount, considering the short amount of time we played.

turnabout of luck?

gotta start work my my studies soon!

2007-05-24T23:35:00.001+08:00

ahh... just posted a long post on the dragonboat forum.

brain drained...

there's nothing i wouldn't do for the team.

2007-05-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

today's a good day!

it rained when i was hoping for it cos i didn't want to run with my kneecap shifting all over the place and then geo lesson was cancelled cos she didn't come again today!

sure beats waiting 3 hrs for a lesson anytime.

i think starting your day happy does make a difference on how the rest of your day goes so i am gonna try and start everyday on a good note then

master's this sunday!

gotta push up our ranking and see how are we doing so that we will know what to do for the month of june to get our gold!

ah sorry, i think i am a little too high today, too many exclamations marks -_-''...

2007-05-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

wohoo! another week has passed without incident.

pretty tough week with a ton of work pressed on us everyday but i survived unscathed!

just one last week before the holiday!

finally gotta have a little time for some r&r.

not too much though, cos there's still the master's series next sunday and then the nationals 1 month after that!

oh yeah, and the mid year too come to think of it.

gonna just do my best for the competitions and after they end, it's one more stretch till the A's end before the good times come.

well, hopefully.

5 months of this kinda life seems a little boring though.

oh well, i am just gonna try and live a simple and happy life for now.

would you prefer a life that's peaceful and calm or one that's full of ups and down?

i am not too sure myself but peace is my choice for the moment, though i am sure i will get bored of it soon enough and change my mind.

anyway, i will just try and enjoy the moment!

2007-05-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

ahh... everything's finally settled now so i won't have a need to think about stupid stuff anymore.

it's a decent closure at least so i am contented.

life doesn't ever seems to go the way i want it to go but as long as i make the best out of it, it is suffice i guess.

now i just hope that i will be able to lead my simple, mundane life till the A level is done in peace.

i think i have had enough excitement and emotions for these two years so i dun wanna ask for anything now.

Peace out!

2007-05-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

ok, i am finally able to post -_-''...

after checking out some forums and troubleshoot areas for google, changing the url from www to www2 enables you to post.

apparently, it only seems to affect singnet users?

weird...

oh well, hope that helps if anyone is having problems posting but since i don't think there is all that many ppl who read my blog, it doesn't really matter i guess

i am seriously shagged out by all the training sia...with the weekends training now at 7, i have to wake up every single day at 5+...

and all the running is like killing my legs sia...

but nvm, it is only for like less then 2 months more. i shall endure!

training for the past two days was ok, with the exception of the long distance run to east coast after training today. everyone like died at east coast after ending the run sia...

running so long distance after rowing is just torturous -_-''...

thank god for the sgc talk tmr which saved us from running tmr morning...

2007-05-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

(note: this is a post on 10 may.

is it just me or is blogger down? couldn't post any new posts so i decided to edit my old one instead and put this into a new post when it works again.

we had the elections for the new batch of j1s exco today. well, the people who got the jobs were more or less expected.

xuewei is the new cap, derek the new vicecap, brandon the qm, cherlyn new female cap, michel the new girls qm and joanne the secretary. pretty much all the ppl i voted for apart from the secretary.

hopefully they will do a good job and lead the team to new heights!

i tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter.

sigh... i never really mattered much to you, did i? )

ahh... it's week 8 of school already!

soon, all the syllabus is gonna be taught finished and then it is full swing revision all the way!

i think i have always enjoyed studying more then doing work so the 3 months before O lvls was a pretty enjoyable period for me with no stress and just simply study everyday and no one ever calls you to do anything.

hopefully it will be the same thing this time round so i will have a pretty enjoyable 5 months or so before the exams with loads of free time to study whatever i want when i feel like it instead of being forced to study certain stuff due to all the crappy tests.

i think i am a rather simple guy with simple desires.

so long as i can pass through each day peacefully and happily, i don't have much to complain about.

still, it's pretty obvious that there's a gapping hole in my life that hasn't been filled.

when will i ever get to make my life complete?

you know, you would. but i suppose there's just too much in the way...

2007-05-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

tired~

lol... been seeing way too much of the db ppl. hasn't been a 24 hrs where i dun see them for god knows how long now.

hmm... i guess i really gotta try and start working harder now. so starting next week, i shall MUG!

not like i got all that much time to anyway seeing that so many days of my june holidays will be burned. still, as long as it burns to a gold in the end, i won't have any regrets!

oh yeah, i think i am a real pig when it comes to eating.

i think easily 95% of my allowance is spent on food cos i dun really buy much stuff for myself.

just yesterday, i had 3 sets of long john silver meal by myself -_-''...

as expected, i kinda got sick of it towards the end so i won't be eating that for a while.

oh man, i gotta control my crazy eating habits!

damn me if i do, damn me if i don't. i have no idea what to do!!!

2007-05-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

been some day since i last blog but nothing much has been going on i guess...

let's see, the 30th anniversary wasn't all that interesting after all and there were some people who were going home by the time i reached there... oh well, as long as the school left a good impression on the guest, i guess it achieved what the school wanted.

nothing much went on for labour day as well, apart from going to the temple for the grandma pass away 100 days thingy in the morning. time really seems to fly... has it really been 100 days already?

went for hj's birthday party after that. well, wouldn't really call it a party, more like a group of us gathering in her house for her birthday? still, happy 18th birthday!

sigh... it's so hard to make out what you are thinking that i don't know why i even bother... i guess i should stop trying too hard and let nature takes it's course then?

though i somehow doubt that nature's course will be anything that i hope for, i guess there isn't much i can do about it...

just gotta make the best out of it then!

i should learn to stop hoping and start being more realistic. it will come when it comes. =)

2007-04-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

lessons ended at twelve today for the school to prepare for the 30th anniversary tmr which didn't exactly benefit me much seeing that i dismiss at 12.30 anyway.

coming to the issue of the 30th anniversary, anyone wanna have a guess at how much the school has spent on it after seeing all the new stuff we got recently and the stuff for the carnival tmr?

now we know why all the problems with the budget occurred at the start of the year when so many ccas have their funding cut.

let's see... all the supposedly heritage stuff outside lt4 and the general office that they redid dunno how many times, the two useless huge flat screen tv in the canteen, the art gallery and those carnival items for tmr?

ah, well. i guess all schools are like that. xinmin did the same thing for it's 60th anniversary too. if anything, it was even more over as we ended up with totally new tables and chairs for the canteen and bar top tables?

anyway, after we were dismissed today, we went to celebrate jiabing's birthday! the lucky guy had 3 bday celebration planned for him and he had to blow out the candles for 3 cakes lol...

wouldn't wanna be him though, after seeing what we all did to him. shall not elaborate on the details here since it's way too gross lol

let's just say that when he got up and tried to run after us, every single one of us ran for our lives, even the j1 guys who were just watching. :X

went to mahjong after that.

i think i would be much richer then i am now if i didn't learn to gamble in my life lol...

you can guess if i won or lost.

oh well, i guess i just gotta stop gambling when i dun have alot of spare cash.

what wouldn't i give to feel less confused and more sure...

2007-04-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

gah... my legs feel busted after all the running i have done and i am nowhere even near done yet?

it's crazy, are we like training for a marathon?

i wish i could read minds...

2007-04-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

how important can one person be to you?

last time i checked, very.

2007-04-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm... it seems like i am either packed to the brim or become totally free.

sat was a super long day, but a really enjoyable one at that!

started off with a tougher training then usual with a run to the third bridge and then power training before some of the people left for school for the 30th anniversary while me and some of the other guys went to eat first before i met up with vic for dessert!

doesn't seem like there is alot of nice places for dessert in bugis junction so we went to swensens. had banana crumble there which was quite nice but the taste was too strong to finish the whole thing without feeling a little sick of it near the end.

still, we had a nice time chatting!

then we went to the national library for a while before i went off for kenneth's birthday party while vic went off for tuition. met at yishun and since i was early, i visited northpoint for a while since i haven't been there before. hmm... it's kinda small and not very interesting but i supposed most malls are liddat. they are kinda getting too generic.

after we got to the bbq site, which was a nice place on a bridge beside a sea?river?reservoir?, which one it is i have no idea but the only thing i know was that my phone suddenly connected to the malaysian phone network which is like weird cos i dun think that yishun is that near to malaysia?

anyway, kenneth have several very interesting cousins that greatly amused us and the food was really great! it actually had good tasting bbq food that wasn't burnt or undercooked, a common occurance at most bbq. nice birthday party!

then we went back to hougang and met up with ben heng and kobe for a catch up session that lasted till 3+am. we really talked about everything under the sun and had a nice time chatting and discussing certain matters. was really tired from the many activities throughout the day though so i was like falling asleep and then left.

while there was nothing going on today at all.

the weekend was really great though! it's much better to be busy doing the things you enjoy rather then being able to slack but not doing anything at all.

now all i need is to be certain of myself, wait for the right time and pick up the courage.

if i have ever needed luck on my side, it would be now.

2007-04-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

oh man... i seriously can't get what is going on...

can someone point me in the right direction?

either way, the week past again without much incident apart from the gay clearing of the logsheet.

i think i have already ran more this week then any other week in my life and i still got 5km to run tmr and an addition 8km that i have to find sometime to complete this weekend.

which makes a grand total of 29km.

crazy i tell you... not like we are training for marathon run so much for what sia...

this plus some of the other stuff i have gotta do to clear the logsheet for this week and the debts i own for egometer is like killing me.

and this is gonna go on everyweek till it's over?

oh. my. god.

i am gonna be dreading mondays cos that's when it all have to start all over again.

kinda interesting to find out that running from school to velocity isn't that far after all, only about 8km+. though the up slopes kinda killed any interest that i might have for doing it again.

oh well, just have to bear with it and do my best for two more months before it's over!

i think i am gonna feel super empty after it's gone...

2007-04-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

wth. i feel like i am being accused or something...

i just mentioned something i heard to hj once and didn't make any further attempts to talk about it anymore and then now it seems like i am a gossip monger? heck, i speak like less then 1000 words a day when most people speak what, 5000?

spare me man...sheri, your fault la!

oh yeah, here is something interesting that i read about in the papers last week that i keep forgetting to blog about.

apparently, it seems like humans cannot focus properly both audio and visual at the same time so they said that using powerpoint to teach was a bad method since the audience have to both pay attention to the screen and the speaker at the same time?

doesn't that ring a bell with anyone?

like isn't that what the lecturers are doing?

hmm... maybe i will try to just focus on one next time and see if it works any better

2007-04-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

the weeks seem to fly by so fast now that i can't even recall what i have been doing!!!

been slacking around alot and started to play yet another online game which is so similar to all those that i have played before that i am growing bored of already.

lucky for that, or else my studies are gonna go down the drain again.

saturday was homecoming day for xinmin but i didn't go this time round.

actually i had already packed everything and had already opened the door before i suddenly have the feeling that i was forgetting something.

realised that it seems like no one else was going so early so i made a few phone calls.

i was right. everyone else is going at 2 when if i go, i have to leave the sch at 1+ for training.

so even if i go, i wouldn't be able to meet anyone and thus didn't go in the end...

ah well.

the weather that day was super screwed up though. it rained while we were running, blazed when we were getting onto the boat and rained again, allowing us to see a huge, full rainbow while in the boat. then it stopped again before deciding to pour after we got out of the boat.

-_-''...

oh well, luckily, no one fell sick from it so it was alright.

oh yeah! i think we provided some entertainment for those tourist near the merlion cos we rowed under it and got drenched by its fountain. and for the record, the water sprouting from it is super salty.

went to meet up with the e4 ppl after that at fish & co. my first time there and to be honest, my first time eating real fish and chips.

fish was never too high on my to-eat list so i never tried it before. it wasn't too bad, though the meat was kinda tasteless if you ask me.

gotta try and eat all those stuff that i have never try before! spare me the veg though.

Edit: after printing the stuff for tmr, i have come to the conclusion that jc kills trees faster then anything else. what's with all the stuff we have to print and the crazy amount of notes that we have -_-''... heck, i think i have given up hope on keeping my notes in a reasonable state anymore.

i think there's a conspiracy between jcs and paper and ink companies.

2007-04-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

wohoo!

i feel so free now that so much stuff is over!

yesterday was a super busy day! econs test, napfa test, the project presentation and initiation!

napfa test was kinda stupid, seeing that i was running 2.4 with a blocked nose and had to breathe through my mouth, horrible feeling if you ever tried. kinda slow timing and got a B... -_-''... unacceptable sia...

and i had to finish the entire test in half an hour cos everyone was talking and discussing for half an hour before starting.

one good thing came out of it though, my nose block was totally cleared after the napfa test!

ahhh.... brilliant air!

the presentation went quite well i think, still, it's highly unlikely that we will reach the finals and i don't wanna get through anyway cos i have enough of the project. it's over and done with!

then it was the j1 initiation!

remembering how horrible it was for us last year, most of the seniors didn't really have the heart to scold them after seeing how hard they are trying and how tired they are and most of the people who are supposed to be scolding ppl ended up encouraging them instead lol...

initiation's just a horrible process but the feeling of going through it is really great!

and that's the super condensed version of a very interesting day yesterday. gotta keep it short cos i wanna go to sleep le.

life is great now!

2007-04-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

woah! been a while since i can find time to blog.

seems that the work is really starting to pile up and they are resisting my attempts to clear them by calling in more of their friends when i am done with them -_-''...

at least i will be rid of a major annoyance tomorrow! the stupid weather study project gonna be done and over with after the presentation tmr!

heck, i am even hoping that we dun get through the round so we don't have to present again to the finals judges even though the prizes are so attractive.

not like we can win it anyway with our 2 weeks old project lol.

life's good again!

now... if only i can like recover, everything would be great. this illness is kinda feeling draggy... it's already been over a week?

2007-04-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

woah... this is like the first time ever that i have ever played four rounds of mahjong straight. close to almost 12 hrs of it. kinda having a migraine now...

not exactly the best medicine i guess but i dun really feel like staying at home for good friday.

not a bad way to spend it i guess.

recover already damn it...

2007-04-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

sigh... my illness just seems to be getting worse and worse?

i supposed that it has to get worse before it gets better but i hate being sick because when i am sick, i go into depression mode where i doubt everything and everything seems to sucks, mainly because i feel so useless since i can't do anything when i am sick.

and i am deprived of all the nice food that can boost my serotonin levels.

so i was like sitting around like a bum just now when everyone was training and all i could do was help out abit and stare.

ya, i know i am crazy about training so you don't have to tell me something i already know.

weird thing is that i sometimes don't feel like training when i can but whenever i am sick, i badly want to recover and train.

kinda stupid actually.

sigh...

please just tell me that it's me being stupid...

2007-04-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

having lessons with a runny nose is horrible, especially when you very badly need to clear your nose but are in a lecture theater with so many ppl around and any wrong move or sound will have you wanting to dig a hole in the ground and burying yourself.

seems like i didn't managed to skip the sore throat and the flu part after all, they just changed the order in which they come.

it's gonna be a long long week....

especially since it's like becoming clearer and clearer that i have been thinking too much YET again and it's pretty obvious that it's not what i thought it was...

i think i am starting to resign to fate, seeing that what i am feeling now is just a feeling of being lost and sorta a " to hell with the world" kinda stuff.

am i like becoming emotionless?

just what in the world is the right thing to do?

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

but it seems like it's never enough. or that it isn't even the correct thing to do in the first place.

i have no idea what's going on anymore.
should i just give up?
should i learn to let go?
i guess life is never a bed of roses.
but do i have to keep just being pricked by the thorns,
with the roses forever staying out of reach?
nothing i do seems to ever matter.
did i ever mattered in the first place?

everytime you and i connect with each other,
a little bit of heart is born between us.
heart isn't something inside you,
but whenever you think.
whenever you remember someone,
that's when heart is born.

can i be heartless instead?

i guess it doesn't matter anymore, does it?

i can only hope that i am thinking way, WAY too much.

2007-04-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

zzz... this is the second time this year that i fell sick on a monday and skipped the last two lessons.

it really isn't a good idea to push yourself in training when you are sick and i did that and resulted in a fever.

gah.

on another note, my sickness seems to be alot more compacted now.

in the pass, it will always be flu first then sore throat followed by cough then fever, over the span of like 4-5 days.

however, now it has compacted into one day, going straight from flu to fever.

might be good as well, so i have to suffer for less days.

i hate being sick -_-''...

2007-04-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

another interesting weekend!

hmm... i really do seem to be living for the weekend nowadays.

went out with vic on fri!

i suddenly realise how much of a mountain tortoise i am, because there's so many things that i haven't tried before or visited.

take for example of fri, it was my first time to jurong point and my first time having an actual meal inside delifrance. heck, i didn't even know that delifrance serves proper food, though it only has like snacks and bread.

and as i walked around the mall, i see so many different food places that i haven't tried before!

well, i think it was mainly a lack of company that deterred me from trying out the food at those places. it's not exactly very likely that you will go to all those restaurant with a large group of friends...

anyway, back to the topic, just being with vic is just so relaxing and fun! hopefully will get to meet her like once a week or something. going to clark quay next!

then there's today which was the school's sports carnival.

realised that being in charge isn't much fun though, if anything goes wrong, you are the one that gets scolded. and even when you try to ensure that everything goes smoothly, it always doesn't cos of external factors like others being late and resulting in the stuff not being ready and it becomes your fault even when you reached like 30 minutes before time?

luckily it only occurred at the start and at the end though, the rest of the parts were pretty smooth sailing and i basically had nothing to do after the early morning rush to set up everything.

sometimes miscommunication is nobody's fault but i think it is often hard for either party to admit that they were wrong so i think that when there was a miscommunication that result in the teacher's race cocking up, it was a good move by mr lee to not pursue the matter.

man... can't we like have a 4 day study week and a 3 day weekend?

oh well, it's not gonna happen so i might as well forget about it.

2007-03-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

guess i didn't do all that well for the block test judging from the papers that i have gotten back thus far.

it's ok though, i know exactly where i have went wrong and the marks i gotten were the result of some of the decisions i made and some because of stupid stuff happening (like me falling asleep at the start of the econs exams -_-''...)

works as a wake-up call too so i am definitely gonna do much much better for the mid-years!

on another note, i am being murdered by the stupid weather study project by senoko power station that have to be done by this week and then the presentation is like next week and we have only seriously started working on it last week?

it's like more then a pw cos pw has a word limit of 3000 words and this one is 5000???

not much chances of winning the competition but the first prize is a trip to Switzerland and second prize is $5000! and there are like only 1 team per jc? though it will go to those teams who made more of an effort i guess...

i just wanna get it over and done with!!!

2007-03-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

Wow! What an eventful weekend!

it was really a roller coaster ride of emotions for me though, feeling happiness and sadness alternatively.

forgot to hand in the consent form for the meet the parents thingy and was forced to go hand in it on friday, kinda annoying, given the fact that i wouldn't even have to go to school otherwise.

so met tandy there and went to bedok reservoir for training. we reached way too early though, so we went for a run around the reservoir before the others came.

the training though was -_-''... it's been so long since we had training because of the block test, not to mention having the type of hiong training that we haven't had for ages after mr hee took over that most of us were shacked out by the end of the two hours so we all nearly died when mr hee said we were going to continue after the two hours ended. however, 20 minutes after we continued, mr hee could see that all of us were nearly dead and he let up since there wasn't anymore point to training further.

the training itself was horrible. it was like we have forgotten how to row after not training for two weeks and we were rowing like crap so everyone was like demoralized. not a good thing seeing that our race was in two days time so we decided to edit the plans we had for the next day a little for the team to get together again.

met vic on sat! it was cancelled initially so was quite shocking to see that it was on again when i woke up on sat. went down to meet her and seeing that it was rather late, we decided to cancel our plans for watching a movie to just having lunch and then walking around after that.

haha... no idea why but i just enjoy listening to her talk so it was a pretty good lunch.

oh yeah, we had kenny rogers! i think it's the first time i had it in singapore cos i only remember having it once in malaysia.

the food was pretty good, though the taste of the ribs was a little too strong such that it made the side dishes seem pretty tasteless and most of it went to waste.

Food! Mine is the one opposite with the ribs and half a chicken.

accompanied her to walk around and shop for a while after that. realized a little why girls like to shop so much cos there's like so much more variety for girls then guys? guys are like limited to mainly shirts and t-shirts with jeans and pants of either the long or the short variety while girls have like so much more?

shopping isn't bad, actually i think i enjoy shopping quite alot for a guy. though it would be alot more fun if i actually had the spare cash to spare to buy the stuff that i like, like the shopping spree i had last year after i got my pay and the other money from i forgotten from where.

haha... still felt a little uneasy in those shops where there are zero guys around though. but i am like getting used to it i guess. wouldn't even step into those shops in the past lol...

had gelare after that before sending her to her tution. ice-cream is nice!

haha... meet up more often k, vic?

went home to get my stuff before going to school to meet the guys after that.

was kinda late so they had already finished their soccer match and arrived upon the scene of them doing... *ahem to yihe cos of his birthday. lol... i think we are a bunch of sick ppl.

oh man... i have no idea what they are gonna do to me on my birthday -_-''... maybe i should just get sick leave for a week or something...

went for dinner before going to yiyang house after that. was actually planning to watch an inspirational sports movie but due to time constraints and other complications, we had to cancel our plans and didn't achieve much in the end... stayed over a yiyang's house before going for the competition today.

to cut things short, we did ok in our heats, much better then in the stupid training and managed to skip the lepacharge to go straight to the semi-finals, did good in the semis and got into the minor finals but did horribly at the finals to end up 4th, just 1 sec behind the first -_-''...

what's with the 4th man... had enough of it to last my whole life.

i guess it was kinda an unfair situation though, seeing that we were racing with people like nus and ntu while everyone had boats full of guys and we had 4 girls on our boat due to a lack of people.

but like mr lee said, that's not an excuse so we are gonna be put through intensive training for these 2-3 months.

prepare to like see me sleep in every lessons from now on.

though i guess it's also happening now so not much changes there lol...

woah, long post -_-''... anyway, here are some pics that vic took!

no need to tell me, i know i look horrible in those photos lol...i think the first one is the only would i didn't feel like dying the moment i saw it... no idea what i was doing -_-''...

still, it was a great time out!

and i want that freaking gold for the nationals!!!!

2007-03-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

wohoo!!! block test is over~~

had a good time catching up with my sec sch friends after the test.

wanted to play mahjong at first but couldn't find a place+ we had too many people so we went to kobe's condo instead. i think living there is quite nice, you get compass point right outside your doorstep! plus he lives in the penthouse -_-''...

first we had a 2 hr chat, then tennis and then we played uno stacko. kinda weird activities but it was pretty fun since we had a good time chatting while playing as well.

can't wait for this weekend! it's gonna be a great one man!

oh yeah, just found this great offer if you are looking for an mp3 or something

http://sg.store.creative.com/products/product.aspx?catid=213&pid=14107&cb2=NLdDjF47ao059N%2FLEfkMkFNB9%2Fy07wkOUWAPADSY2xLFMHVfTWUvrQ%3D%3D

it's an 8 gig zen mircophoto for only $179!!!

pity i don't have spare cash or else i would have brought it already...

2007-03-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

oh man... the exams are not even over yet and i am in the holiday mood already!

there's only one stupid geo paper left tmr and i am done with the block test!

most of the papers was quite ok i think, at least i had an easier time with them then i thought i would have, given the amount of preparation i did...

speaking of which, the past march holidays was the most no life one in my close to 14 years of education!!!

gah. everyday is just wake up go school and study.

luckily, the company in school wasn't too bad and there were many fun night time chats, with people i didn't expect to too!

didn't exactly study finish what i should due to too much slacking during study time so i guess i wouldn't exactly score super well.

then again, i doubt i will do too badly either so it doesn't really matter either way since this is nowhere near my best effort or anything.

and i nearly fell asleep during the first 40 minutes of the econs paper today, nodding off after every few words i write so half the stuff i wrote were either illegible or are cancellations -_-''...

oh well, gonna have fun after the exam ends tmr! hopefully i will be able to have a great thursday as well before chionging for the competition on sunday!

2007-03-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

woah, sdba's drawing of our opponents for our heats in the master's series next sunday rocks!

nj, our long time rival
scdf( singapore civil defence force)
nus ( champion team at last year's river regetta)
mountbatten, which consist of like more then half the national team rowers

-_-''....

can they like give us a break...

oh well, not like it's new to us...

just gotta do our best then!

2007-03-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

oh man! studying is like killing my braincells.

the more i study, i more stupid i feel.

and it's not because i don't dun understand what i am studying but rather the feeling that i am filling my brain with alot of useless crap that i am just gonna throw away and forget the moment i finish my A levels...

so while studying in school, i wanted to study but i was welcoming any and all distraction like seeing random people walking pass and whatever stuff is happening.

end result? i didn't study all that much.

die... still got a ton to study and there's only two days left!!!

oh well, i don't think i will fail this time round but i won't do all that well either.

doesn't really matter though, seeing that block test is like useless?

worse come to worse, they can make me stay back for night study, which i am already doing anyway so there's zero difference.

what i am more concerned about is the lack of training!!

good grief, i don't think i have ever imagined that there will be an entire month where there is only 1 training a week!

at least that idea didn't occur at all last year where 3-4 trainings were the norm and 2 was already weird.

i think we are sick people because where else do you hear about people requesting for extra training?

master's series is coming soon! next sunday infact....

dunno how well we will do when there's so few trainings...

hopefully we won't do too badly otherwise it will like leave a poor impression on the juniors?

stupid race schedules that forever clashes with the exams...

i think i am gonna run riot after the exams...

there's so much i wanna do and no time to do them!

it's a torture i say...

gah... biggest mistake i made this year was forgetting that the cut off point for ny could drop as well and resulted in........

DAMN!

2007-03-11T00:18:00.000+08:00

sentosa trip today!

it was ok i guess, pretty usual trip like every of ben heng birthday's celebration.

kinda nice to have your friends celebrate your birthday every year by going to sentosa isn't it?

at least you can be sure that there will always be people who will celebrate your birthday...

took the monorail to into sentosa for the first time today. quite a good idea, seeing how much faster we can get to the beach this way.

though there seems to be some problem with the card tapping system since it only seems to work half the time and they have to have staff at the entrance and exit to help out in case our cards don't work.

went down to k-garden at senrangoon after that and ya, turns out i was right about something.

most girls can sing quite well while most guys can't.

it's due to our pitch and stuff i guess.

pretty enjoyable day, gotta start studying for the block test though!

why do i always get this feeling that i always am about to make a mistake when i do certain things? worse of all, in the past, this feelings have always been accurate.

damn.

2007-03-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

sigh... today is such a horrible day...

i am getting this feeling that jc2 shortens your life span due to the lack of sleep everyone is getting and how much it takes out of you.

3 tests in two days is just stupid because you can't study well for them anyway so i don't really see the point.

does anyone actually have enough time to do anything interesting to blog about anymore?

i guess i gotta wait for this sat's sentosa trip le ba....

2007-02-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

school's getting awfully monotonous. it's like everyday, i am simply waiting for the lessons to end so i can get out of the classroom.

i mean i don't really mind studying, as long as there's no teacher going on and on in the class and making me doze off.

and trust me, i am like dozing off for everything and anything -_-''...

it's like i am living for the period before and after school. soon, i think it's gonna becoming living for the after school only.

bleah.

life's getting too cramped up with school work and becoming too boring and monotonous!!!

i need to get out of this slump before i sian myself to death!

2007-02-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

sob... i just lost $150...

damn... was planning to buy a pair of sneakers with that...

2007-02-18T01:34:00.000+08:00

i just read some of my previous posts and it seems like my life is horrible now?

actually i think my life now isn't all that bad, apart from studies taking up much more of my life then i want it to.

i think i am having a much easier time in j2 then alot of my peers and a much better life then my sis who is like doing hw till 2+ everyday and she's just in sec 3.

bunch of crazy ppl.

anyway, i think the reason for the outlook of my blog is because unhappy stuff are much easier to blog about compared to happy stuff, due to people's natural tendency to complain.

let's take the events of the past few days as an example

friday was the celebration of the cny, which was like the worst cny celebration that i have been through, lessons in the morning and then a super lousy concert.

i wasn't the only one who was bored by the concert though, judging by the general response and the speech mr kwek made after the concert.

it was also the latest one too, ending at 12+, making me lose out on the chance to go back to xinmin

the morning was made more interesting by a agreement made among the db guys though. we agreed to were semi-formal clothes to school so most of us were wearing shirts and jeans and it was kinda aa and weird when walking around the school.

after that, i went with the db guys to walk around orchard. played a short game of pool then had dinner at jack's place.

it was my first time at jack's place, which i think is kinda pathetic. come to think of it, there's like a lot of restaurants that i haven't been to before.

fish & co, all the sushi places, most of the a la carte places in fact.

the fact that i don't have anyone to bring to those places doesn't help

after that, we went to E2Max, which is sorta a huge gaming area at the top of cineleisure. got a gaming room with 4 coms and an xbox inside and it was pretty fun playing inside there, we were like semi-rioting.

good thing the rooms are sound proof.

today( actually is yesterday cos it's past 12 now) was super boring though. went to the temple to pray at my grandma's altar in the morning, which is actually quite weird for me cos i am an atheist and i don't believe in the afterlife.

before i went home and sat at the com till now.

yep, that's my day.

and that's gonna be quite similar for the next couple of days due to the fact that i can't go visit my relatives due to the recent passing away of my grandma.

see how easy it is to go on and on about unhappy stuff while you are at a lost for words when you are trying to blog about happy stuff?

i think bloggers would understand what i am trying to say.

so actually, my life's not all that bad!

eh...ya.

2007-02-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

sigh... no idea why but i suddenly just feel.... sad...

valentine's day just boring when you have nothing to do and not by choice

still, thankfully there's training today to occupied my day or else i think i would just stone the day away

it's the end of yet another stupid valentine's day!

it's just a pity i don't love myself or else life would be so much simpler

Memories

2007-02-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

I have no idea why, but my uncle suddenly dug out an old holiday video that included me from 1998 and made it into cds for us and it brought back alot of memories.

i looked damn cute! and blur. and toot too to say the truth.

then i decided to look through the old photos albums for fun and i saw a number of photos of me doing stupid stuff, half of which i don't even remember doing.

i have decided to scan them into the com and burn them into disc to prevent the photos from degenerating further and believe me, some of the photos are degenerating.

and i have the time too, seeing that i won't be out much during the chinese new year, due to the belief that you aren't supposed to celebrate chinese new year if someone in your family passed away recently.

so that's my entire mother's half of the family gone and they are the ones i usually celebrate chinese new year with.

dang.

anyone wanna like invite me over please do so cos i will die if i spend the entire chinese new year at home -_-''...

anyway, the photos also brought me to some not so nice realisation too.

that i haven't taken any photos with my family since primary school and at the lower primary to come to take.

that i don't have any photo of myself growing up since 2000?(i think)

that i only have one family portrait, which is to the zoo, which is like more then 10 years ago

that i have never traveled aboard with my entire family before due to my dad not being able to go off work

that i have a pretty dysfunctional family where my dad haven't even slept in the same room as my mom for years, where my dad don't get along with my mom and sis, i don't get along with my mom and sis, i am neutral towards my dad and the only two who is close is my mom and sis with me and my dad treating the house more as a hotel then a home

can't remember anytime where i actually talked to any member of my family for more then a few sentence except when we are arguing.

pretty sad family eh?

the saddest thing is that i am not really bothered by this and don't really care too much about it

however, if there's one thing for certain though, that is that i will not ever let my own family degrade to this and will make every single effort to ensure that my children always love their home and their parents and my other half shall lead as happy a life as i can possibly managed.

perhaps it really requires for you to have a lousy family to want to create a good family and really treasure it...

perhaps that's why i don't believe in god and am such a firm atheist, because i believe that it's only up to you to make your own life work

i will make my life a good and memorable one.

2007-02-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

damn, can i like recover already?

my cough and sore throat is refusing all my attempts to recover them and it's freaking annoying me to hell!

i wanna be able to train properly damn it.

tomorrow's training not gonna help much either

anyway, i went back to xinmin today to see them get back their results.

i think on the average, they did better then us but our best was better cos even 2a1s managed to get onto the stage this year while we stopped at 8a1s last year.

still, congrats xinmin! hopefully the xinmin name will stay strong till long after i step out to work!

however, at my og side, there paints a different picture.

sigh... i am horrible at comforting people and i have no idea what to do when people are sad -_-''...

hopefully, they will get over it and cheer up soon!

on another note, The One 2007 today was pretty good, at least there wasn't anything horrible sounding and most of them sang better then they did during the auditions.

come on, it's time for me to recover after a week already!

2007-02-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

just finished watching a show, bruce almighty.

ok, so i am like a few years behind schedule but hey, that doesn't really matter right?

although i am an atheist so i don't exactly believe in god, i still got something out of the show though.

i realised that i often blame others for my mistakes and when something bad happens, i will blame anyone but myself.

though everyone does that at some point in time, it's still nothing good, which just reminds me that i am guilty of it and should try to stay clear of it whenever i can.

something else that i thought about after watching the show, that there maybe someone in the world who truly cares about you and loves you but you may not even realise it till it's too late and that person is more important to you then anything else.

now, who says that watching shows are just a waste of time?

you may not realise it but most good films will leave you thinking about certain issues after the film is over.

though what's really important is what you make of it and what you do about it.

sometimes, don't you find yourself guilty of what you dislike about others? when you discover that, it's an indication that you should do something about it.

it's all in the effort to make yourself a better person and that's what really important isn't it?

2007-02-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

i am kinda starting to think that my timetable's not all that bad, at least it has one early day and no triple chain lectures or something horrible like that.

gonna live with it i guess, it's loads better then some of the other timetable i have seen .

fever's gone, though the sore throat is still here and it seems to be getting friendlier with my throat everyday such that it seems like it doesn't want to leave. and it even got it's friend mr cough to come.

gotta banish these unwanted guest soon.

seems like it's gonna be a pretty mundane year regarding the academic aspect and an exciting one out of lessons!

i think i should change the address on my IC to the school instead for this year cos i am in the school wayyyy more then i am at home, about 17 hrs in sch and about 7 at home?

i think i prefer it this way though, school's so much more enjoyable then home...

2007-02-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

gah.

for some stupid reason, i woke up with a sore throat and a fever on saturday morning.

the fever stayed at a constant 38.5 throughout yesterday and today, sometimes going down but always climbing back up again.

this is the first time in my memory that i have had a fever that lasted more then one day -_-''...

the worst part of this is the fact that i missed today's training! and right after i posted that long post on yahoogroup, making it crap now.

sigh...

not even sure if i will be going to school tmr.

being sick is a horrible thing when you wanna train but can't...

2007-01-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

i am kinda starting to think that i have really paid $165 to torture myself with my contact lenses.

true, i kinda enjoy wearing contacts cos they are letting me view the world more clearly and without any obstruction then i have since like 10 years ago?

it's amazing how much that little more freedom of the eyes can let me appreciate viewing the world.

however, they are also making my eyes super tired and at times painful and irritated. and the weird moments where the contacts go blur in the middle of nothing and copying lecture notes is blurified

is it worth it to put my eyes through this sorta torture?

they say that i will get used to it and it won't hurt anymore in the future.

i really hope that that is the case cos i don't think i want my eyes to keep suffering.

and it's not exactly cheap, $165 for 6 months...

oh well, the most i will be able to wear them is only for this year though, cos in the army, everyone is gonna be wearing similar black thick specs.

which brings me to another point.

time really flies! in like 10 months, i will be taking my A levels and then in another few months, i will be stuck in the army for 2 years. then uni and then work!

10 months used to feel so long but after the freakishly fast 2006, it doesn't seem to any longer.

i really should learn to use my time wisely.

2007-01-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

everything's back to normal i guess.

j2 life is tough, but i will survive fine i guess. not the type who will place stress on myself... if only i can get the stupid weather project out of the way, all will be fine le.

now everyday is packed from morning till night with studies and training after the logsheet came into play. which is good i guess, preparing us for the june race. and after hearing from the kayakers that our main opponent, nj, isn't as good as last year, i feel that we have an actual shot at gold this year!

after spending so much time and effort, all the sweat and pain, i don't think anyone from the team wants anything lesser then a gold to end our journey right?

i am gonna do everything i can to improve and i hope that everyone else does too.

nobody from the team is gonna read this but go for the gold everyone!!!!

2007-01-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

well, all the stuff is finally over.

spent alot of time at the void deck of my grandma's house these few days and tried to study there but i guess the sound of mahjong and people chatting and playing cards isn't really conducive for studying.

which means i am pretty much dead for my chem and maths test.

doesn't really matter though, seeing that this is an A lvl year.

i know it's really wrong to say this but funerals are really alot of trouble.

first, there's all the procedures that have to be followed, including alot of rituals that doesn't make any sense and is extremely length.

maybe it's just cos i am an atheist.

second, there's the very high cost involved. a 5 days funeral cost more then 10k? that's alot of money that doesn't have to be spent.

for my funeral, i am gonna demand in my will that i am cremated within a day of my death and no rituals. instead, i want my family to just spend a day at the beach or a park or something in memory of me.

after all, after i am gone, isn't keeping the family together the most important thing rather then stupid stuff we do now just for the sake of "face"?

i see my extended family breaking up after this as my grandmother was the only thing that was keeping them together with all their quarrels.

that's another reason why i think funerals are a bad idea because my uncle and aunts were like in a heated "discussion" for 4 hours after everything's been settled about the cost related to the funeral?

it's like extremely stupid to start arguing just after your own mother has been cremated? although i don't believe in the afterlife, they do and what the hell do they think that their mother would be thinking after seeing them argue and behaving like kids?

and so me and my cousins were in the room watching this would-be-comedy-if-the-actors-weren't-our-parents play out. and feeling throughly irritated because we could all see how stupid their arguments were and how we were totally powerless to do anything about it due to the difference in seniority.

and them badmouthing each other infront of us doesn't really help either because they all believe themselves to be the only one right when it's really a case where no one is in the wrong and they just have different perspective.

i felt dumb after listening to them.

and to think that all of us were doing the exact same thing barely an hour ago when grandma was being cremated.

crying.

it's really heart-wrenching to hear their painful sobs when the coffin was being sent into the machine such that i teared myself even though i didn't tear at all throughout the whole 5 days.

now i really believe what my cousins told me. that life is like a cycle, you start off childish, grow mature and become childish again after you reach a certain age.

i certainly hope that i would know better then to behave like them when their combined age is like a few hundred years old and they are squabbling like kids over money and calculative to the last cent?

money really is the root of all evil.

time for life to go back to normal!

only i really, really hope that i don't do anything stupid again.

2007-01-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

well, it finally happened. my grandma passed away on sunday night. i guess this is gonna be a busy week then...

2007-01-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

sigh... been to the hospital quite alot lately to visit my grandmother who is suffering from some rare disease that is causing her red blood cells to burst and turning her whole body yellow...

just received the news yesterday that she only got a few days left to live, which i find it hard to believe since when i saw her on sunday, she looked pretty ok and was still able to talk but when i saw her today, her eyes were already unfocused and i didn't hear her talk at all in the few hours i am there...

so if i disappear in the next few days, you should know where am i and dun need to ask too much...

was weird studying for the geo test tmr in the hospital too... not really in the mood to study???

anyway, i am feeling pretty ok since my grandma is not really suffering and she has lived to a ripe old age of close to 90 le and she has her whole family around her everyday. i guess she had lead a satisfactory life and there's nothing much to regret le....

the stupid weather is making alot of ppl sick, including me. just hoping that it doesn't degrade to the four friends again cos i started with the sore throat this time and not the flu as per usual.

been hanging out with my og quite abit recently and they are good company to chat with. though it seems that every batch is getting more and more hardworking... our seniors said we were so hardworking during the first 3 months that we were scary but when i see the j1 batch this year, they seem alot more hardworking then us.

which is good i guess, maybe they can push ny up the ladder off 9th place?

being sick sucks.

2007-01-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

It's been such a long time!

well, i am long over it le, with some help from the guys when we went to sentosa.

anyway, sch has started for two weeks now and i had a busy and fun two weeks!

orientation was the first thing of the new year and i guess it was pretty good?

since it was my second time being and ogl, i wasn't as nervous anymore and infact, i think i was pretty slack since i only started to lose my voice on the last day when i lost my voice on the first day the first time round.

maybe it's because this time i didn't have to lead much and shout much cos my og got ppl who are willing to lead and thus i had a much easier time then most of the other ogl.

however, it was kinda hard to be high when the other two ogl wasn't really the type to get really hyper so i think my og was a little bit sian diao, at least compared to some of the other ogs.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention, i was the ogl for og 13 in abyss! though if you ask me, abyss was one of the most dead house...

still, i had quite a lot of fun! my og this time round was much better then the one in o2, at least they were much more enthu.

nice batch of ppl!

kinda sad that the orientation was so short though... i think one more day of orientation would have made alot of difference and bonded more of them together instead of the 8-10 ppl that's together now.

beyond that, it was a great 3 days!

then it was dragonboat orientation and i guess it didn't go as smoothly as it should as one of the boat sank -_-''... it's like the first time ever that i have ever seen a dragonboat sink sia...

then it was one week of chionging the holiday hw that i am still chionging now. but it's for the most part done le so it's not so bad...

the general agreement among the j2 guys is that the j1 girls on the average is better looking then the j2 girls.

ok, that was random.

but it's hard to blog about so much stuff at one go when there's so much to blog about and you have a leaky memory like mine!!!

oh well, i am gonna try to go back to my blogging habit but it seems kinda hard when there's so much going on.

just one more short year to go!

2006-12-29T17:37:00.000+08:00

it's times like this that i feel that i am just a big idiot who can't do anything right.

so much interesting happened in the past few days and i wanted to blog abt them last night de but now i have completely lost all mood for blogging about them.

now i am just wondering wth is wrong with the choices i made that causes me to experience this time and time again.

i can't remember how many times i have told myself not to repeat my mistakes but i kept doing them anyway.

sometimes i really wonder what's the point of putting myself through all of this only to end up saddening myself.

i told myself more then once to just give it up but i can't seem to do it right.

it's hard to put feelings into word and at the frame of mind i am in right now, i dun wanna try.

i feel like a piece of shit now but at least i won't continue doing stupid stuff for the rest of next year
i am too tired to do this anymore and i just pray that i nvr fall into this trap again.

if it's someone up there idea of toying with me, well, you are doing a good job and fuck you.

but since i dun believe in god and thus it's my own fault due to my own wishful thinking, then, fuck you, eric.

2006-12-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS!

it's a good christmas!

went to yvonne's house on christmas eve and celebrated christmas with some of the dboaters. had a short bbq and then it was talking session, though this time with alot of alcohol. finished the choya wine that you always see advertised on tv, which was actually stronger then most stuff i tried before at 15% alcohol. then we had barcardi, not the 4.8% alcohol one that we always buy from 7-11 but the 40% alcohol one, which tasted quite horrible actually. then we finished another bottle of baileys irish cream with 17% alcohol after playing some games that requires the loser to drink.

i was ok as i didn't drink all that much but could still feel my head getting a little heavy...

yvonne got seriously drunk though, luckily yiyang took care of her so we dun have to do anything.

however, bonn got semi-drunk too and i had to spend the whole night making sure he dun get downstairs where there are a ton of wine...

oh yeah, forgot to mention that there was 3 parties going on at the same time at yvonne's house as yvonne has 2 sisters and they each have their own party so there were alot of drunk ppl around...

drinking is ok as long as you know how to control but getting drunk makes no sense la, you get yourself feeling upset and sick and you have to trouble ppl around you to take care of you, which isn't much fun...

exchanged christmas presents in the morning, then crapped somemore before going home and knocking out.

i think i have gotten used to the idea

lol... it seems that i have switched to sleeping in the afternoon these few days sia...

oh well, i shall just enjoy the last few days of the holidays!

2006-12-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

got back from the chalet le!

not bad a chalet, although i was suffering from a serious lack of sleep due to my own unwillingness to sleep when there is other stuff to do.

day before the chalet, some of us went to spend the night in qingyi's house and they all knocked out one by one till i was the sole survivor who finished watching 4 movies!

i paid for it though, as i developed serious eyebags the next day and my brain was only half working cos i forgot to do half the stuff i wanted to do.

crapped quite abit in the night and did stupid stuff which is kinda hard to elaborate and dun really want to cos it's embarrassing to everyone lol...

and then we went for training and then the chalet!

it was the first time i went to a chalet in aloha loyang and woah was it big.

it had 2 floors with 4 rooms with toliet in every room, a well equipped kitchen, an empty area in the middle of nowhere that seems to serve no purpose and an area in the front for a nice bbq.

AND there's a pool within 20 steps of leaving the chalet door.

so it was pretty nice and big.

pity the chalet was only a one nighter though

actually, the chalet was way too big for my liking though... with 4 rooms, i dun even see half the ppl around throughout the chalet.

not much fun in that.

i think i prefer those one room chalet where everyone squeeze in and the night would be a chatting session instead of a dozing session cos everyone can find a place to sleep in.

come to think of it, i have always had better experiences in single room chalet so far cos everyone bonded together better and the two story chalets always ended up with ppl unhappy with each other over lack of sleeping space problems.

well, there's no lack of sleeping space this time round even though around 30 ppl stay behind but there isn't much fun in that though...

anyway, back to the chalet.

had a decent bbq with nice food cos this time round, we ordered from the bbq wholesale company which like done everything for us so we only had to cook them.

not that i was really interested in eating the food though. normally i am more interested in cooking then eating but this time round no mood so i went off halfway to enjoy the seabreeze, which with the monsoon session around, was super shiok!

we were supposed to have some chat in the night but for some reason or the other, everyone fell asleep one by one instead and i went to sleep after watching two supposed to be horror shows but made me feel bored instead.

die liao, i think i am desensitized to violence and horror shows le cos i was yawning at them.

or maybe my brain wasn't processing the image due to the lack of sleep or that the movies were really lame.

anyway, after waking up and leaving the chalet, some of us went to watch Curse of the Golden Flower, which was quite a typical zhang yimou film.

still, it wasn't too bad and quite enjoyed the film.

ending was weird though.

strange how good books of films always have poor ending.

speaking of which, harry potter book 7 is coming out soon! it's called Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. final book le, hopefully rowling won't disappoint us.

should be coming out around june or july? speculations is that it will come out on 07/07/07, seems like a nice date for it to come out?

going to yvonne's christmas party tmr, hopefully it will be a fun one!

2006-12-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

another week has pass!

leg has recovered and now the only thing that's bothering me is the immense pile of hw that is still untouched.

if they actually collect the work, i am so dead.

well, the good news is that i have decided to stop working le.

and just when i was getting used to the work and can actually call other ppl slow le. -_-''

bad news is that the reason i decided to stop work is that this two weeks are too packed to work so i still won't be able to get much work done.

excuses, excuses eric...

didn't earn all that much this time round... only managed to earn 300+? and i have already spent most of it.

oh well, at least i managed to know the workings of a hotel banquet better, including the fact that the dishes are horribly dirty most of the time and that at the end of the day, no matter what you got on your hand during work, it still smells the same everytime, which brings me some doubt about the food...

0607 outing followed by db chalet this week, followed by yvonne's christmas party, followed by ogl workshop, followed by 4e4 outing.

god, it will be a miracle if i actually get any work done at all.

2006-12-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

ouch.

i just sprained my leg for the first time in my life.

oh well, i guess i am quite lucky considering that i got my first sprain at 17 and not at like 5 or something.

anyway, it was quite stupid, considering that i sprained my leg during basketball during warmup before gym training today.

sprain during warm-up = dun make sense, seeing that warm up is supposed to prevent injuries?

and so i did a weird routine for gym today.

after that, i tried to go to find a sinseh for treatment but i went to one near the school and they told me that they will only be back only half an hour later. didn't want to wait so i went to another one nearby at serangoon central.

and they just happened to be on their lunch break.

by which time i was annoying at having to walk around so much so i just went home for lunch and then seeing that my sprain wasn't all that bad, i followed my initial plan to go queensway and brought my shoes.

funny how i had to sprain my leg on the day i wanted to buy shoes.

walked around abit upon reaching there before finding the shoes i wanted to buy that i saw online. asics kensei which was USD$189 when i saw it online. i figured it would be around $200+ and after bargaining, it should cost about $200 but was shocked to find out that it's cost was $339 -_-''...

gave up my idea and settled for another shoe

thought i would go to the sinseh below my house which was opened on mondays, wednesdays and fridays but it just so happened that the guy went for a wedding dinner. went to another one below my house and this one will only be back on the 15th???

wth. today all sinseh go on holiday ar.

finally managed to get one that was actually opened near my house and oh boy was it pain.

after the thingy i thought i would rather limp for another week.

anyway, hopefully it will recover my tmr so i can go for training.

2006-12-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

god.

i just slept for the longest period of time i can recall.

5pm yesterday till 10am today.

pig, ya but with a good reason though.

went for training yesterday then a youth convention thingy we got tricked into going to listen to speeches and propaganda messages by the youth wing of the people's association and then i went for work and finally, at my fifth day of work, i got to serve, which wasn't that bad i guess...

ok, done with work. guess what i did after that?

i went for the standard chartard marathon. not as a runner of course, but as an offical.

reporting time? 2am.

not sure if they were mad or something but ya, that was the reporting time.

thankfully, they were thoughtful enough to provide buses at a few locations to bring us there.

and so i spent a night and a half a day helping out at the standard chartered marathon giving out t-shirts and giving out shirts to 9999 ppl was alittle scary. and putting markings on the number tags of ppl who just ran 42.195km is a little stinky and gross?

oh well, it's to nice help out i guess... plus we got $20 and a couple of nice adidas shirts =)

and so i spent 36 hrs straight awake and then 17hrs straight asleep. personal record for the sleeping but not the awake one.

not that i am in any hurry to break them though.

sigh... i really dun enjoy waking up at 5+ during the holidays...

2006-12-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

woah... tired...

gone through 3 days so far and i tell you, reaching home at 1am and waking up at 5+ to go for training is not good for your body... i nearly fell asleep walking home yesterday and i think i would have if not for my freaking stupid shoes. no idea how girls wear heels for a long time cos i am only wearing those with a slight elvation and i am dying liao.

anyway, for some reason, even after my third day of work, i still haven served in a banquet yet. did cocktail for second day so i was only walking around with drinks and clearing empty glasses and plates while the whole of the third day was set-up, which meant that i was pratically doing manual labour moving stuff about all day long.

sigh... sleep is now a precious thing...

i think i won't even have any sleep on sat cos i am gonna be an offical for the standard chartered marathon and the reporting time is 2am??? so going there after work.

i am so gonna die there...

2006-11-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

went through the first day of work as a waiter!

however, i got off lucky and got to become the storeman cos i wore the wrong shoes while the others suffered a tough first night serving kranji sec for their grad night. turns out they don't teach you much and expect you to know everything and do things fast without pause.

however, i was at the back doing odds and ends jobs with alot of rest time so i was basically slacking...

at least compared to the rest of them la, cos i was only like getting vegetarian food, finding stuff and preparing the stuff in advance nia. and i think my partner was the only one who didn't scold me sia... the rest got scolded alot according to them.

however, it's gonna be my turn tmr so hopefully i will have an easier time or something...

gonna be a troublesome first day.

2006-11-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

went for the training for the waiter today. not too bad i guess, at least the person giving the training was entertaining enough.

if nothing goes wrong, shld be starting work next week.

too tired... shall blog about the first day of work then!

2006-11-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

sigh... it's so hard to get a job now.

been going for dunno how many jobs interview for the past few days le and none is sucessful.

well, mainly because we have been trying for jobs for the Sitex fair and it's super hot. just the other day, we went for the interview and there was more then 50 ppl who turned up for the interview. i think the person doing the interview was shocked as he kept moving chairs in until the room was full and then they had to do the briefing 4 times before telling us that there were too many people and they had to interview us another time.

looks like everyone is in need of money this holiday...

as a result of the interviews, been going to different parts of singapore and taking way too many bus rides a day.

let's see what jobs i have tried the interview for so far...

packing hampers( 65 cents per hamper)
selling gps system for cars at sitex ($50/day+ commision)
promote singtel broadband at sitex( $8/hr)
promote laptops at sitex ($8/hr)
some event setting up job ($6/hr)
waiter at orchard hotel ($6/hr)

at the moment, only the orchard hotel one seems even possible cos tmr going for the training. not sure how many days we will get to work though...

oh well, as long as we manage to get a job, it's fine i guess.

hopefully i won't be as stupid as last time when i spent all my pay in 2 weeks. though it would be rather hard seeing that the waiter job gives you the pay everyday...

at least this is as flexible as it can get, only working on the days that you want.

anyone got other jobs lobang?

2006-11-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun! better then a usual satuday anyway.

had a good rowing session although i seriously cramped up at the first part for some reason...

the guys team went to sentosa and had some fun there. cheap way to spend a day if you ask me, just $3 for a day of fun at the beach.

loads of swimming at the start and as i cannot swim, i mainly just flopped about in the water...

i seriously need to get over my phobia of drowning and start to learn how to swim or else i will be dead in ns...

after that, we proceeded to sun tanning cos we wanted to even up our tans alittle, with our tanned arms and face but white body. didn't really maganged to though. for me, my arms just got darker while my body remained the same. beats me why.

after that, we played volleyball in the water.

well, not exactly volleyball. we were just trying to pass the ball to each other using volleyball style. for some reason, a caucuasian joined us after a while and he was pretty good. set a goal to passed it continuously 15 times and it took us the better part of 2 hours, by which time we were all starving...

after showering, we came out of the toliets just in time to see fireworks! no idea why there's fireworks there but a surprise fireworks is always nice...

got out of sentosa after that and had a looonnnggg dinner before going home.

doesn't exactly sounds like much fun with so many guys there but the db guys are fun enough to make a boring outing turn out fun!

going for an interview tmr and if we( me, bonn ikhtia, koonlong ping jim qingyi) managed to get through, we are gonna start work right after that.

not exactly fun work though, we are working as labourers? not that bad just moving stuff around i guess...

at least we will be working together so it won't be too bad...

2006-11-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

lessons for the past few days weren't too interesting apart from today's econs lesson which was a debate about a should i stay or should i go thingy, which, as with most lectures with mr lawerance around, pretty interesting.

given a choice, would you stay here in singapore or would you prefer to go elsewhere?

if you ask me, i think singapore is a pretty good place to live in when you are young and active, since there's enough to keep you occupied and you still have the energy to keep pace with the society.

but till say... 50? you would be starting to feel detached from the society and other problems that old age brings. at that point in time, i would hope to retire in new zealand, living on a farm and others working for me there so that i would only work when i feel like it and only for enjoyment sake. of course, having the company of the person you love with you is even more impt. strolling in the wide fields doing nothing but enjoying nature and breathing fresh air and just enjoying each other's company.

that's a wonderful retirement life man.

emm... the description is supposed to be much better but i am currently brain death after a gaming marathon so forgive me.

anyway, the past few days went by smoothly enough, apart from the fact that for some stupid reason, my tailbone injury from the race refuses to heal properly and simply bending down hurts.

lessons were kinda stupid since almost everyone else has h2 maths and i don't so i was bored to death during those times as there are often lessons after that. managed to solve this today by "pursuading" bonn to pon maths and go eat mac breakfast before going to his house for halo and then going back to sch for chem.

and i am currently as broke as i ever have been in my life since i was like 5. don't think i had ever own ppl money for this long before -_-''... sigh... i need a job man...

tomorrow's gonna be a busy day with quite alot of stuff going on. first is training as usual, then the briefing for the officals for the standard chartered marathon( ya, i was bored a few months back and signed up) and then going with the db guys to sentosa! seems to be going out quite often with them now... thankfully all of us are broke and thus going out with them doesn't require spending too much money...

and i still think that i have done something stupid on tuesday which i should not have done...

gah. can i just stop doing stupid stuff and thinking stupid thoughts already?

2006-11-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

race is over!

hmm... not a bad race. managed to do pretty well in the first day and everyone got through to the semis. the drawing was horrible though, for the guys race we were in the same heat as the eventual 2nd and 3rd placing. during the heats, we got 2nd won the ppl who got the final 2nd placing, Singapore Instititute of Management(SIM) while Singapore Canoe Federation( SCF) , who was the favourites to sweep everything got first. quite scary to meet up with such strong teams in the heats. mixed boat got through easily cos we were in a easy group while the girls got 2nd in their heats.

thinking that we were safe and wouldn't meet scf and sim again till the finals, we got a shock the next day when we found out that we would be racing against them again in the semis. this time though, we got 3rd while sim beat us by 0.3 second. that means we were out of the running for the grand finals but since we got the best timing for 3rd place, we got into the minor finals, which is sorta a race for the next 5 teams who didn't get into the grand finals.

mix boat got into plate finals and the girls got into plate finals too, which is for the 11th-15th teams. which was not a bad result as it was, seeing that we were like the youngest ppl in the events, racing against ppl from the various universities, polys, ang moh associations who are like 1 and 1/2 head taller then us and huge. speaking of which, there were alot of them there, britishs, irishs, germans, canadians and australians. oh, there were quite a lot of japanese there too. and then there were the ppl from the singapore armed forces sports association(safsa), singapore civil defence force, safra and so on.

all in all, a huge amount of ppl =)

the guys minor finals were a fiasco though, all the boats came in at the exact same time and they decided to give the 1st,2nd,3rd,4th and 5th positions to lane 5,4,3,2,1, in that order.

guess where we are.

yep, lane 1.

stupid decision. but anyway, everyone knew that we had done the best we could possibly do and we were more then satisfied, even though we didn't win anything. the knowledge that we do race on an even footing with the best in singapore made us happy enough and the words that our opponents said to us after the race, applauding our efforts and showing us that they took us seriously was more then enough to make up for the lack of medals and trophies.

nydb guys and girls, i love you all!

anyway, on a less serious note, we went to seoul garden for our post race dinner and almost rioted in there. at the start, we just ate like pigs cos we have been banned from all unhealthy food like fried food and any cold drinks for two weeks and we were hungry for anything unhealthy.

however, once we started to get full, which was no easy task seeing that we were all starving before the dinner and the ban on so many food was lifted, we started to clown around and do stupid stuff, take gay photos and just generally had alot of fun and laughter.

can't imagine another group of people i would love to spend more time with =)

after we got out from the seoul garden, we took some group pics. halfway through them, the guys started to strip the unfortunate soul who happened to be qingyi. i think the girls took some photos while he was half naked.

mind you, this was just outside the seoul garden at marina square. good thing there wasn't many ppl around or someone might have called the police -_-''...

by the end of our playing and photo taking, about half the guys team had been stripped.

i was among the unfortunate half. luckily though, i don't think anyone took a photo. not that i could be sure when my shirt was over my face though.

and we continued into the mall to photowhore somemore before making our way back home. shall post some photos when i get my hands on them.

2006-11-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

fun day!

had our first db guys outing today and we went to bowl at this weird ass super ulu building that no one else knows got bowling and pool till someone brought us there.

had some fun bowling and pool but the real fun came at the end when we were going home. someone tried to be funny and pressed all the levels in the lift as we were going down and at the next level, a battle royale erupted where half of us were trying to keep the lift door open while the other half were trying to get it to close. 11 ppl in a tiny lift fighting in a manner that made everyone laugh till they were splitting at the sides is kinda hard to imagine but we somehow managed it anyway. then at like the 3 time the lift went down one floor, which was abt the 6th floor, we were still playing but suddenly someone walked to near the lift and since all the buttons were still pressed, we all ran for it out of the building, sprinting down 6 floors and erupted into laughter while we were imagining the face of the guy.

found out that it was raining when we got out of the building and since we couldn't risk getting sick the day before the competition, we went back into the building again, to a supposed arcade. split into two groups and raced up to the top floor again, only to find out that there wasn't a arcade there. then we decided to make our way down again, this time using the stairs. the building's stairways were kinda abandoned and it was dark and eerie at one part which somehow became funny. oh yeah, we found a sorta porn book at one of the staircase. makes you wonder what the person reading it was doing.

then we somehow ended up at the back enterance of a cinema that showed indian films and we peeked into the cinema. then someone in our group decided to laugh loudly and we ran for it again.

it was a super funny experience that i think i will remember for a while... a bunch of guys behaving like monkeys running around in a mall. good thing the building was kinda abandon and there wasn't much people around or else who knows what kinda trouble we might have gotten into...

good team bonding eh?

2006-11-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

wow... it has been so long since i blogged. don't really felt like blogging much recently cos there doesn't seem to be much going on.

not that i am not enjoying myself but more of because i am being happy doing the same stuff over and over so there isn't much point blogging about them

that and the fact that it's mainly about db and i dun think many ppl are interested in reading about them at.

anyway, in the like two weeks? since i last blogged, quite a few things have happened. we found out if we will promote or not and i am kinda sad that some of my friends didn't make it through... but they seems to be taking it ok though. hopefully it will be a much better year for them next year. the sch's not exactly fair when it comes to promoting the students though, cos there are some with worse results then those who retained that promoted or advanced.

training's back in full swing and the river regetta is coming up so everyone is training like mad and you can see the kallang basin full of people everyday. i think it would be pretty fun to go to boat quay next weekend cos there's gonna be a ton of ppl and for girls, there's gonna be alot of hunks around so they should have an eyefeast. the guys should do ok too cos from what mr hee told us, there's around 50 teams of girls in the women's open alone which is abt 500 ppl so there's gonna be over a thousand ppl there next week. the heats is on saturday and the semis and finals gonna be on sun. should be able to get to sun if nothing goes wrong.
here is the location map in case anyone is interested

db's camp just over too! it was a tiring two day although it was more relaxed then i expected. still, excerising so much in 3 days=pain. aching all over. but it was pretty fun though, alot of laughter throughout. heck, we laughed till my stomach literally cramped up while playing pictionary with acting.

what would i do without db ppl in jc...

i think i really made a right choice when i join db otherwise jc is just gonna be a horrible experience, apart from the first 3 months which were really fun and great.

just one week more till regetta! then i can eat whatever i want liao. been banned from fast food and other unhealthy food for two weeks.

sinful food galore after the race man. i am gonna pig out like mad!

2006-10-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

sigh... why in the world am i sick at this kinda stupid time when training is going full force abeit the reduction from the haze and when the op's presentation is going on???

i kinda resigned to fate that the moment i get a flu, the whole package will come crashing down and I will get sore throat, fever and cough all at the same time. Seems to happen every single time…

been really lazy to blog for some unknown reason even though so many things have been happening

not sure what’s up with me too

anyway, last fri was the sch’s open house, which rocked and was quite good. I was a tour guide and brought quite a few groups around. The sch is doing a much better job then last year and that’s for certain cos this year was pretty fun and the response was good and last year was just horrible.

the goodie bag is still pathetic though.

Then Monday was the getting back of results and nothing much to say about that though.... was kinda disappointed with my econs results and the overall results but I guess I did ok…

Still, could have done much better though.

The lessons for the next few days was just a bore and I couldn’t even get myself to pay any attention at all since they were just going through the test answers and we don’t have our scripts so there wasn’t much point in paying attention…

Due to the haze, water rowing sessions have been changed to gym sessions instead and on the Tuesday session, I guess it was my fault that I got sick cos we went into the gym right after running and got into the aircon when we were all sweating like mad.

SIAN LA!

I don’t wanna be sick at this kinda time!!!

Today was supposed to be the op presentation but then due to some problems over the storage of my grp’s ppt file, my grp was the only grp that didn’t present today.

Which is kinda lucky I guess, seeing that we haven’t really completed the thingy enough yet…

For like the first time in dunno how long, I didn’t go for training cos I was feeling weak all over due to the stupid fever. God damn it.

Now my only hope is to recover by Sunday so I can go for the rowing…

Stupid haze la kns…

2006-10-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

omg. time flies when you are enjoying yourself sia...

didn't realise that i haven blogged for so many days until i accidently clicked my favourites list wrongly.

anyway, the promos are long over and i have been enjoying myself playing games, games and more games till i totally forgot about blogging.

Training has started too! finally got back to rowing though it wasn't the best start with the stupid haze around.

crazy la, fri night and sat the haze was horrible lor. it's like singapore has suddenly become genting highlands but without the cool weather and the refreshing air. instead, we get lung problems inducing, smog filled air.

damn the idiots who set the fire.

pw is still as crappy as ever and doing it all the time for the last few days is not helping me to like it better one little bit.

anyway, i am bored so i shall do the music quiz.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.NO CHEATING!4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.

How are you feeling today? Mayday- Wen rou ( -_-''... got meh...ok only leh)
Will you get far in life? Guang liang- Yue ding ( I gotta make promises ar?)
How do your friends see you? Rainie Yang- Shuo Zai Zian ( wa lao...wth. everyone wanna say bye to me?)
Will you get married? K one and 5566- Feng yun bian se ( cloudly day then can get married? mafan leh)
What is your best friend's theme song? Wang Li Hong- Forever love ( so now to find whose theme song is forever love to find my best friend?)
What is the story of your life? The corrs- Summer Sunshine ( wah, not bad sia)
What was high school like? Troy and gabriella(High school musical) - Start of something new (hmm... quite true... it was the start of many many new things...)
How can you get ahead in life? Jay Chou- xin qing ( eh... follow my feelings?)
What is the best thing about your friends? Danial Powter - Bad day (huh? best thing about them is a bad day? or that they will be there for me on a bad day?)
What is in store for this weekend? Shou Hou ( ... alot of waiting? i dun want..)
What song describes you? Lin Jun Jie - Jing Hua lun ( eh... makes no sense leh.)
To describe your grandparents? Stefanie sun and Mayday - Wang zi mian( huh... they were prince? then i royal blood ar...)
How is your life going? A1- Caught in the middle ( true... caught in the middle of many things i can't solve nor do much about them... sigh...)
What song will they play at your funeral? Damien Rice- cannonball (huh? am i gonna look like a cannonball when i die or something? or i gonna die by a cannonball? painful leh...)
How does the world see you? Guang Liang - Tong hua ( wah. i am a fairy tale sia...)
Will you have a happy life? Guang Liang and ping guan - You ni zai sheng bian ( hmm... as long as have you then i will be happy? better find that you soon then)
What do your friends really think of you? Jay Chou- Kai bu liao kou ( huh... since when i can't open my mouth... except when talking to a couple of ppl nia ma...)
Do people secretly lust after you? Mayday- Sun wu kong ( wah lao... i not monkey la)
How can I make myself happy? Rainie Yang - Zhi xiang jian ni ( ... sure or not... so far keep wanting to see one person has only resulted in misery leh...)
What should you do with your life? I believe ( Hmm... i should keep believing? makes some sense i guess)
Will you ever have children? Lin Jun Jie - Chi pang ( wah. my children will be birds or angels? hoping for the latter...)
What/who do you miss most currently? Harlum Yu- Chun ni ( ??? dun get it...)

like most ppl do liao leh... you wanna do then do lor.

2006-10-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

econs today. nothing much about it. we were pratically given the answers before hand la so it's just a matter of how much you are able to reproduce so it was kinda boring and i didn't bother to memorise the answers...

didn't do as well as i hoped i can do but oh well, still ok with it

now, geo tmr, which i am really dreading right now.

during mid-years, i liked physical geo much more then human geo but now, i absolutely detest physical geo and are starting to like human geo more le cos human geo just makes more sense and physical geo is boring the hell out of me.

do we really need to know all those stupid stuff in details and what's with all those stupid names that makes no sense at all!

i read them, but nothing goes in at all. grr... doesn't help that there's just a ridiculous amount of material to remember. and then mrs koh said something about just seeing the number of pages you write and she knows roughly how many marks to give le?

what happened to concise and to the point stuff? and quality over quantity? gah, i think i will just give her pages and pages of crap and see what i get cos i really have no idea what's going on with physical geo now.

used to love geo most in sec sch but now it has become the subject i dislike the most.

miss ng was right sia... shouldn't take geo at A levels.

damn, why didn't i listen to her!!!

2006-10-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

Gah. I think i started revision too early or something so now that the promos are here, no mood to study liao.

kinda stupid come to think of it cos i played more games this week then the whole of the 3 weeks before this.

anyway, promos are like half over!

gp was ok, maths was ok, chem was not.

there ends my promos so far cos i dun feel like talking much about them.

been having quite alot of fun studying with dboaters for the past dunno how long.

night study's is quite enjoyable most of the time cos we entertain each other quite well so it doesn't get boring or anything like that but the cost is going way over the sky, especially during the holidays or on saturdays.

i think i spend double my allowance for those days and just on food alone! breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks, snacks and yep, more snacks.

i am such a pig. abeit one that can make food vanish without it having any effect on my body.

i think i have been eating the food from the coffee shop outside sch and 7-11 more then the food from sch sia. heck, i can almost estimate the time it takes to fill a big gulp with my eyes closed liao.

where did the days where i can spend and spend without having to worry about money gone???

broke.

where am i gonna find the money to go out after promos???

provided got the time and places to go though.

i miss rowing!!

*note: the entry seems kinda random cos i haven't blog for too long and am just typing what ever comes to my mind

2006-09-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

this is like becoming a weekly thingy.

oh well, i guess it will be like this till the the promos are over.

i still think not giving yourself pressure is a better way to study though so i am still feeling relax and studying at my own pace. shouldn't have much problem completing studying.

studying till 10 in school everyday really takes quite abit out of you. been sleeping in almost every lesson i have been in, even though the studying also got alot of crapping involved.

that's like 15 hrs in sch everyday -_-''....

anyway, i just finished watching high school musical!

ok, that was way late but it's better late then never right?

great show man, loved the songs so i am dling them now :X

just 3 more weeks till it's over everyone!

2006-09-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

Argh! Waste of a week!!!

didn't get down to doing much at all!

true, i went down to school everyday during the weekdays but it wasn't exactly very constructive and most of it was time wasting.

then they brought me to play dota on the day of competition which i forgot to blog about and then i was hooked.

been spending alot of time on that stupid game this week, so much so that i couldn't even take anytime out for blogging or other stuff.

but no more!

self-ban is now imposed.

no more games till promos are over and i am gonna study my ass off to make up for the lost in time this week.

gotta keep up with the training too or else i am gonna die after promos like a beached whale.

i slacked enough this week so by theory i should be able to chiong all the way to promos le cos i regained any lost sleep this couple of days by waking up at 12 noon.

kinda a boring holiday but i think it served it's purpose and let us rested a little.

just a little.

but still better then nothing at all.

all the way ppl!

2006-09-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

surprisingly nice day today.

got over with the econs lecture and went down to raffles place to meet and had lunch with the rest of the dragonboaters before the fun race organised by smu at the watershock! 2006.

the location was abit weird... some kinda construction site kinda place. but it looked pretty nice with quite alot of people there. quite alot of fun stuff to do but abit hard to describe la. but something else was nice there though that made alot of the guys very happy...

actually alot of something else :p

damn, i wished i had a camera at that time.

anyway, we heard the organisers say that our race got pretty good prizes, $300 and 11 pairs of Teva sandels for the first, $200 and the sandels for the second so we assumed that the third prize would be $100 and sandels.

kinda a weird race with no marking what so ever and ridiculously choppy water so it was more of a luck thingy to see the current is with who but my boat got third and the other ny boat got 5th. there were only 5 teams though but only the top teams from the nationals actually went there so only we, nj and ac competed.

after a race where it like ended right after it started, my boat got 3rd while the other ny boat got 5th. i think ac was first if i am not wrong...

the sad thing was that we assumed wrongly and 3rd prize is only medals!!!

gah, i wanted the slippers.

still, this is like the first medal of my life so i am quite happy about it.

i want more! and i am gonna work for them!!!

2006-09-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

great week!

especially when you only have like 3 days of school?

nothing much happened on mon and tues, at least from what i remembered, which leaves alot of loopholes due to my poor memory.

however, wed was pretty interesting. it was raining heavily since the afternoon and so we thought that there wouldn't be any running during training but the rain got smaller and eventually stopped for a short while, just in time for us to start running and after we ran finished, the rain started again but lightly.

the light rain continued throughout the training so it was pretty cooling.

however, the moment we got off the boat, the rain started to get heavier and heavier, such that it was a heavy downpour within 15 minutes of us getting off the boat. and we ended training early that day for some reason otherwise we would be like drowning in the boat.

mr hee can predict the weather or something???

however, due to the heavy downpour, we were trapped in the tiny shelter that the sdba offered and everyone just got wetter and wetter while waiting.

after a while, we gave up and ran all the way to the bustop which was a quite a distance away. the guys gave up their umbrella to the girls but from what i can tell, the umbrella was about as useful as using a penknife to hack a tree in that storm. so we waited for the bus which usually takes a short time to come but choose to take a very long time to come that day while we got wetter if that was possible and freezing when the wind blows.

eventually we got on the bus, dripping wet. thankfully, the bus we took didn't have aircon so it wasn't too bad.

after finally getting to the tennis court where we usually shower, we inspected the damage done and for me, if you know the state of my file, you will be able to guess that my notes are like gone case liao. which was exactly what happened. chem got the worst of it and the ink ran like crazy. hek ming was worse though, his pen leaked for some reason and his pants became green.

so after showering, the rain still haven stopped so we had to walk in the rain to the fast food restarants, which kinda defeated the purpose of showering in the first place. me and ikitia couldn't agree on which one to go to,( me want kfc ikitia wants mac) so we ended up playing scissors paper stone in the rain -_-''...

we went to mac.

anyway, after eating, me, ikitia and kampong decided to cab home so we went out to wait for the taxis. funny thing happened.

a troop( and i really mean a troop) of taxis drove past just before we got to the road and so we thought that getting a taxi was gonna be easy but we were wrong and waited for some time before we eventually got a can.

notice that it was still raining at this time and we were still getting wet.

what a wet day -_-;;....

thursday's the teacher's day celebration but the rain decided to come down again and the sc's plan to have a picnic in the parade sq was ruined. it was quite a nice idea but the weather wasn't very co-operative so we ended up in the hall.

the aces workout was super weird. it was what? a bangara aerobics??? never even heard of it before that day but it wasn't too bad. pity the people around me wasn't too enthu about it and i kinda got affected by them...

then the performance started! i must say it's one of the best teacher's day concert i have attended. the weird thing was that there were actually more teacher's performing then students, which is funny for a teacher's day concert where the students are supposed to be the one entertaining the teachers.

but oh man. alot of ny people can sing sia! and the teachers, especially ms kwok and ms lin zhong yan sang superbly lor. mr loo wasn't too bad either. ms kwok especially sang like a pro. was like O.O.... while she was singing.

ate the food we brought after the concert and cabbed down to xinmin. we were in time to watch abit of the concert, which wasn't too bad with the teacher's singing too but pales in comparison to ny de teacher's singing.

and god, the hall stinks.

only managed to see ms ng for a while but it was good enough. gave her the present and she said that we can meet up some day for makan! looking forward to catching up with ms ng.

today, i decided to pack my file which was in a horrible state. took me the better part of 2 hrs, which isn't too bad considering there's 8 months of notes and wksheets.

the result was scary though, especially geo. the human geo alone was more then the whole of the econs file and the physical geo one was even worse lor! ridiculous amount of notes filled the entire file to the max and i could barely close the clip for the files.

why in the world did i take geo...

kinda scary looking at all the files cos there's just so much stuff that needs to be finished in just 20 odd days more.

still, it looks completable( is there even such a word?), but barely and only if i really work hard for it.

really, really busy holiday coming up!

2006-08-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

man, working on a sunday sucks. but i guess that's what you get for totally not working on friday and saturday.

and my blogging frequency has been dropping like crazy! been feeling too lazy and tired to blog recently.

anyway, the past week has been more of the same, with night study everyday and waking up feeling dead the next day, enduring till the weekend then recover to chiong for another week.

though i cheated on friday by not staying to study cos really no mood sia. though is mainly cos got no one to study with that day.

someone pei me study leh. study alone really, really very sian and like no motivation de.

sat was kinda weird cos never go for training.

not my choice though, there was geo lessons and akagi( hek ming) didn't tell mr lee about it so mr lee never change the time and then had to go for the lessons lor.

and i heard that the training was fun lor. damn... to think i wasted the time sleeping in the geo lecture instead.

anyway, after that, we went to buy the teacher's day present with 4e4 ppl. long time never see them le but most of them didn't change much, still the same old bunch of people. walked around abit before buying some presents for the teachers then the guys excluding jy and hk went to hougang plaza to play pool le.

pretty fun game cos everyone is in a pretty good mood. went for dinner after that and had a nice time chatting. quite looking forward to the usual chat on teacher's day eve!

decided yesterday to go to the gym today with yj but man plans and god forbids.

in this case, it took the form of a rain.

so we waited for the rain to stop before going to the gym.

for some reason, the people in the hougang gym are like always very nice and polite de sia. after going there so many times, i don't think i have met any rude people there. everyone is always polite when asking if you are done or stuff liddat and are always willing to help.

nice place!

after training, we went to the coffee shop at hougang plaza where i proceeded to try and tempt yj into eating the hot plate by choosing a seat that's directly opposite the stall cos he was trying to lose weight. quite alot of temptation cos it's like every table around us was ordering the hotplate western food. i like the hotplate there!

but due to recent budget constraints cannot eat anything i like liao. sian!

if only money grows on trees or drop from the sky.

i think there are something that i am really stupid at but i can't seem to do anything about them so i guess i just have to bear with them until i discover some miracle that can make me better at them...

2006-08-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

wohoo! pretty great couple of days. not sure why i am feeling good but i feel much better then on sunday la.

we had a trash talk on mon which didn't amount to much cos nothing much was said but then the fun started after the talks when the guys went out to wait for the girls to finish.

you see, it so happens that 3 of the db guys had birthdays very close to each other. wei ji's on the 18, mine on the 20 and bonn on the 21.

and so we got tortured.

wei ji got taupoked and shoes hidden so he had to run around looking for his shoes.
i got semi-pillared, as in i managed to protect myself sufficiently so that the only part that hurts is my thighs and stripped.
bonn got stripped and then taupok.

ahhh... these are some traditions i can live without.

can't wait for ikitia's bday next year so i can get my revenge...

anyway, we had quite alot of fun in school during that time and it was pretty good.

then stayed for night study, as i promised myself to do everynight.

then 0607 celebrated my birthday today!

funny place though, at the coffeeshop. they got me a pair of billabong slippers and cakes that they tried to smash onto my face while i was eating it. thankfully, it was already halfway in my mouth so there's wasn't much damage done apart from the shock.

i love 0607!

ps: sorry for the hurried post. couldn't get myself out of rome: total war so i didn't have much time to blog this entry before going to sleep.

2006-08-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

ok. got over it. from now on, i am going to try and stop hoping that anything nice will actually happen on my birthday because it won't. without hoping anything, at least i won't feel so pathetic.

but i think that is somehow impossible cos humans are a creature of hopes to begin with. but at least doing that will somehow minimise the impact?

had a talk with wenqin eariler in the afternoon and it was kinda funny with the two of us comparing whose birthdays was worse. felt better after that.

the past two days weren't too bad actually so it would have been a pretty good weekend if it wasn't my birthday.

the class celebrated my birthday with the usual two one person size cakes that everyone gets. come to think of it, there's really alot of people born on august isn't there? i think the time 10 months before august is a good time to do something?

anyway, it was pretty funny cos they got me the trick candle which would reignite after blowing it out. pity was that i already knew what it was cos i saw it once on my uncle's birthday where he blew 40+ of them out and got a shock when they all relighted.

tip: if your candle looks very thin and the flame is super strong even in the wind, chances are that it's a trick candle so prepare for it.

sat was kinda packed. went for the film forum thingy cos i couldn't find an excuse not to cos the teacher already asked mrs koh for leave. it was pretty interesting though, with film makers talking about the process they went through when they made a film. there were a few guestspeakers like a horny old man who made a movie 30 years ago when where was still wilderness in singapore and the author of talkingcock.com. it was pretty interesting to hear a lively q&a session for once although they were mainly by outsiders.

felt pretty bad about not going for mrs koh lecture though... especially as i even went to ask her if we could join the lecture halfway cos i didn't want to miss the whole lecture but in the end also nvr go. but really could find a good time to go la.

then after eating a hurried lunch, took cab down to sdba and had to like almost immediatly jump into the boat.

rowing was quite ok that day and it was pretty fun on both the mixed boats and on the guys boat but for different reasons.

after we got on shore though... it was horrible. i got pinned down and tortured. shalln't mention how i got tortured here cos it's too embarrasing. it was freaking painful though.

went to golden mile to eat with some of the guys and then went to some super ulu place to play pool that no one would have expected to exist if someone didn't bring you there. had a pretty fun time there too.

after that though, i made a bad choice. i saw suntec city de building in the distance and thought we were quite near it and convinced the others to walk to there instead of walking to lavander station which was near there. turns out that what you can see isn't always very near cos we walked for like 50 minutes before we got to city hall? lol... walked from kallang to city hall lor. win liao.

luckily, the others were nice ppl and didn't blame me for it. had an enjoyable time walking through a part of the CBD that we wouldn't usually see. and there was alot of great looking food on the way too! pity we had already ate...

there's this steamboat shop that spans a huge stretch of the street with full tables all the way and loads of ppl queuing. and i really mean a huge stretch cos there were 3 seperate long queues for the steamboat. though the food didn't look that great to me la.

walking long distance in slippers is not good for your feet.

anticipitation brings hope. hope brings you to hope about surprises. and hoping for surprises that never comes makes you feel like shit.

if i can have a wish, i wish that i can forget my birthday so that anything that happens will be a pleasant surprise instead of having to hope for something that never comes.

zhu wo shen ri quai le

Birthdays?

2006-08-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

I hate it.

for me, it's just a day that makes me feel pathetic.

because, unlike most ppl's birthdays, my one is not a happy and jolly affair but is instead a day where i am sianed out of my mind.

this is the second year running where i am spending my birthday all alone at home doing nothing but rotting.

"hmm? your family don't celebrate your birthday with you meh?"

nope. i don't think my family has celebrated my birthday since i was like 5 and i only remember that cos i saw a photo of a young me when i was still cute with a birthday cake. can't remember any other occasions that my family celebrated my birthday liao.

at least last year i still could use prelims being 2 days from my birthday as an excuse to console myself but kinda hard to find a reason this year unless i wanna use everyone studying like mad for the promos in 1 month+ time.

infact, the only time i remembered my birthday was celebrated was in sec 3 and that was cos i was desperate enough to want someone to celebrate my birthday with me to treat half the class to kfc cos i didn't think it would be celebrated otherwise.

pathetic la. that's the only word for it.

i simply hate my birthdays. and worse of all is when i see msg that tells me to enjoy my day cos it's like the top 3 worst day of the year for me every year.

birthdays? PUI!

however, with that being said, i still gotta thank those people who still actually remembered it and wished me a happy birthday.

from the order i received them, hankee, charis, yinning, kudin, wenqin, caiying, yongjun, yuanting, soonheng, gwen, jesslyn, weiying, sebestian, sarah, eugene and yongliang, zheying

thanks alot to all these people who remembered my birthday and took the effort to wished me! love you all.